Dispelling Clouds

[Guest guest]

A cloud has set upon me

it's inside and not and not above me

And the rain has not come

to wash the debris away

I feel as heavy as cement

I wish I knew just what it meant

But it's my job not to let it set

which tool do I use this time?

Sometimes, I get tired of the battle

getting back up in the saddle

all the time, but that is what I chose

That's why I'm here, I suppose

Blue feels good

In the skies that are above me

But not inside where I should love me

Even when I do

heaviness will sometimes be there too

I would like to say

things in life cause me to feel this way

But that is not the truth

Perhaps it is

An accumulation

Of all the years of pain and humiliation

That I went through

And now that life is cool

The past has time to brew

But it is my job now

To grieve when it is needed

To shake the past off my heart when it is bleeding

To be positive and heed

the training I know now and have received

Is what life is all about

So I must live

in the here and now

to take each breath with gratitude

to keep a positive attitude

and thank my God

and climb back in the saddle again

Kstherine Burns