Re:woops

[Guest guest]

Hi Alia,

I really feel for you. Exams and school are hard enough when well and

with being ill so much harder. I know that you know the caffeine and

sugar are not good for you. When I eat sugar it makes me more tired but

to be honest I have not had the discipline not to eat it for some time

now and have gained a lot of weight. I think you must give yourself

credit for doing as much as you do and if you are doing your best then

that has to be good enough. If the teacher is tired of hearing about

your limitations, tuff. You have to take care of yourself and it is a

shame you must keep reminding her of your needs. She should be

sensitive and not need reminding, so that is her issue not yours.

Nevertheless, I can understand that it is hard on you to be " different "

from your classmates. I hope you passed the exam.

Sandrea

[Guest guest]

Hi Alia, Your possible sending

of a blank email sounds so

much like me. Sometimes I'm so

gonzo that I press the wrong

button even though I know

(most of the time) it's wrong.

I hope you passed your

midterm, mostly so you won't

have to do it again. Those

proctored exams are a rough go

and I didn't even have CFIDS

when I had to take them. I

don't think I'd be able to

even get to one now, much less

study long hours in advance.

I have (for some stupid

reason) increased my caffeine

intake lately too -- hey maybe

it's summer. It really takes a

toll.

I am really emailing just to

commiserate and to say how

sorry I am you are going

through all of this. I'd like

to do my Masters and there's

one of the finest schools in

my field close by (and much

can be done by email too) but

I just can't have my life be

out of my own control right

now so I'll have to wait until

I come out of the slump I'm

in.

Keep an eye out for relapse

after all your stress and keep

talking to us. Taffy

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I think I just sent a blank

e-mail to the group. Sorry,

somehow I pressed reply and

send. I'm just so tired, so

very tired. I keep doing dumb

things. I think I failed a

midterm today as well, or

maybe just passed. Proctored

exams (where an approved

person administers the test at

a testing center) are awful

because the time and day are

set by someone else and it

takes extra energy to go to

the place and sit up straight

for 2 hrs. My sleep has been

even worse lately. Most nights

I'm getting less than 6 hours,

and I wake up a lot. I'm

drinking an awful lot of

caffeine and eating a lot of

sugar during the early day,

but there's just this

underlying fatigue and

weakness no matter what. And

of course I'm trying to

maintain " good sleep hygiene "

by not drinking any caffeine

after 3pm, and doing all of

those other things I'm

supposed to do. In my stupid

health lab class we have to do

all of these health and

fitness assessments. I'm just

being honest, but my teacher

is probably getting tired of

hearing that I'm limited by

CFS and FMS. I'm so tired

right now, I can't stand it.

-Alia

" And the consequence of our

existence

Is the reason for our

being. "

Stuart Todd 5/27/71 -

3/13/90

" God be between you and harm

in all the

empty places you must

walk. "

Jill Riley 4/24/63 -

10/12/00