Re: I'm Back.......

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(((((((((((((((Jan))))))))))))))) That's so sweet that you're putting me on

the Temple prayer roll. Between the Zithromax and everyone's prayers, my

chest is feeling a little better today. I skipped the Trazodone last night,

and I'm skipping the thyroid altogether for a few days, and that racy

feeling is already starting to subside. He said the T4 could build up and

cause that.

I'm sorry you had to go through panic attacks. When I was in college I

ended up in the ER for them a few times, too. Last night, I knew what was

happening and I just rode it out like you said. The minute you realize what

it is, it starts to take its power away.

A story about panic: I went to my speech class for the first time last

night. I've been putting this off for over 17 years. At one point in my

college career I thought I would never graduate for the simple reason that I

couldn't face public speaking. :-) Well, I was so sick I really had to

push myself just to get to class. Because I'm missing two other classes in

the next month due to travel, I had to go last night. I get in and we each

had to give a two to three minute speech about ourselves! And it was

videotaped and played back to us afterward in front of the class to be

critiqued. I was SO scared, and when you've been having anxiety the last

thing you need is such a trauma like that. Well, I did just great!!! For

me, at least. I guess teaching Sunday school has helped me to be able to

talk in front of people. Matter of fact, when we were reviewing the tapes,

she said I'm good in front of a camera and that I have a very expressive

face, and asked me if I'd done any acting? Me, acting??? I just smile a

lot, that's why my face seems expressive. But I must say that seemed like a

major victory for me. I was smiling all night about that one.

I'm sorry you're still having problems with . Did you try to just

reregister? It sounds like they can't quite get their act together with

your current account.

I will add you to the weight loss list. We're weighing ourselves each

Tuesday, so start today. We don't send in our weight, but next Tuesday we

will send in whether we've lost or gained and how much. Like -2 or +1.

Then I'll keep a running total for each of us, and for the group. My totals

won't be too dazzling for the first weeks, because I'm going away this

weekend and then again when my sister in law goes into labor. But I am

keeping track of what I'm eating.

I've been calling Deb on her cell phone the past few evenings, but she hasn'

t been picking up. I've left her messages to call me, but I think she just

wants to get through this part on her own. She probably doesn't feel up to

talking. Poor Deb has been through so much with this. She certainly still

needs our prayers. I know I miss her terribly, and I'm sure each of you

feels the same way. Ethel needs her partner in crime! ;-)

I've missed seeing you, too, Jan. I'm glad your fatigue is easing. That

has been one of the biggest benefits of the Remicade so far, is that the

unrelenting fatigue is beginning to pass. I'm able to get so much more

done. If only this chest inflammation would quit plaguing me, I'd be set.

I asked him if the thought the pain was from anxiety, and he said no. He

thinks it's pleurisy, and that I probably still have some bronchitis. That

's OK, though, because the antibiotics should take care of that soon.

Sending much love,

Carol

[ ] I'm Back.......

This has been a hectic last week and a half. I have been " hard bounced " by

several times, this last time from Thursday until earlier today. I

keep sending back the emails they send me to reactivate and they do for a

short time and then I'm off again.

I have missed so many postings and I don't have the time to go to the

archives that I will just have to wing it for awhile.

Carol: I am so sorry for what you are going through. I have been there -

done that - also. I had panic attacks for several years. The last few

years, I ended up in the er several times only to be told all the pain and

shortness of breath that I was having was due to muskal - skeletal(sp) and

would never be referred on to a specialist to check it out. I got so I quit

going to the er and just weathered it out at home. Fortunately, this new

doctor I have, I think, would send me to a specialist or find out the reason

herself. I called the temple to put your name in on the prayer rolls but

they are closed on Mondays and the ext vm box was full(I think it must have

something to do with 9/11 as I have never had that problem before)so will

call first thing in the morning. I will put Tess and all the others in

also. How is Debs? I must have missed any updates on her.

Tess: you are certainly in my prayers. Having had periods of deep

depression myself(though now it doesn't seem as rough as what you are

experiencing)I always clung to the belief that " this too will pass " . Hang

in there, Sweet Tess, with our Heavenly Father's love and the support of all

our family and friends, you will make it.

Al: I have missed what you are going through right now but my prayers are

with you to support you and give you strength to face whatever is happening

now. You are a vital part of our family.

I must share with you the shoes I just bought over the weekend. I found a

$10 off coupon(for shoes $25 or more)from Sears in a magazine. I hurried

down because they were having a big sale and it included my " I Love

Compfort " shoes. I found a nice pair of mules? clogs?(without the high

heel), the slip on type that I like that allows for compfort and the

swelling from time to time. They were normally nearly $40 normally and were

on sale for $25 so ended up getting them for $15 They look sylish without

taking away the comfort. Someone had asked about shoes again so thought I

would share.

The heat wave seems to be gone from southern CA for the time being and it

even rained over the weekend. While all my joints and flesh ached, I didn't

have the all consuming fatigue that usually keeps me limited on what I do on

the weekends. I was able to complete a couple of projects from the clutter

that occurs when I just can not muster the energy to face taking care of it

on an ongoing basis. It really felt good to set back and look at all I was

able to do but I wonder if I am going to have to pay for it with a major

flare down the road.

Last week, it was mentioned that someone would make the voodoo dolls for the

group. If that gets off the gournd, I would like to contribute to whoever

will be making them. Also, there was talk of those of us that have a weight

problem and trouble sticking to a diet, would form a group within out group

for support. If that gets off the ground also, please include me in on that

also. Thanks.

Does anyone have trouble with their vision? Blurry at times or hard to

focas? I have had my eyes checked but they do not see anything except the

formation of cataracts that they insist are not bad enough to cause the

things I went to see them for.

This has turned into another one of my epistles so will close for tonight

before I bore anyone into getting a good night's sleep. It's good to be

back......

Jan in CA +/:=)

Jan Tully, PO Box 19362, San Diego CA 92159

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Hi Jan,

I have also been having problems with my eyes. Just like you said, blurry

sometimes and ok other times. I just keep putting off making an appointment.

I just get so tired of doctors sometimes.

Love and Hugs

Stacey in PA