I guess I am a whiner!

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Hi a and and everyone:

Sorry, I haven't written in a while. I have had a few things happening and I

thought I would whine a little. Sorry about that. I guess I really am down

in the dumps. Today is my birthday I am 55. I can't believe it, I don't

know where the time has gone. I was always the youngest, in my family, among

friends, even at work. Now I feel I am older than most people I know. I

guess that is just my imagination. Well, to start off a few weeks ago I

ended up in the hospital with severe gout in my knee and I couldn't walk at

all. I had to go in by ambulance cause I couldn't stand well enough to get

to a car.

It was terrible. The pain was the worst I have had and I have had a lot of

pain in my 55 years. However, my Doctor figured it out to be gout and they

started treating me with the appropriate medicines and I was much better

after 4 days and was able to go home. Finally my knee feels a lot better, it

took a while to get back to normal.

My cousin who has MS was put on a respirator, he got pneumonia. He is

paralyzed and I guess we new this would happen eventually. However, I was so

upset after seeing him yesterday, i was actually shaking. I just couldn't

control it. Well, then I couldn't believe that I got into an auto accident

and totalled my car. The car in front of me looked liked it was going but

had actually stopped. I didn't see any lights on the car and I didn't see a

blinker. (She said she was making a turn, but even my passenger said she

didn't see any blinker on). I am pretty bruised up. My passenger is okay.

I just think we are both shook up a lot. I still can't seem to stop shaking.

The accident really shook me. I had accidents before but this was very

scary. I keep seeing myself(my car) hitting the car in front of me again and

again when I think about it which is a lot lately. My stomach is all purple

from bruising but I take predisone so that is probably why and my right hand.

The ambulance came and checked us over, but we didn't want to go to the

hospital. Plus, my hospitalization just lapsed and I was unable to get it to

start in December. I have a plan, but it starts in January. I couldn't make

another bill. However, I would have if I thought I was in danger. I called

my Dr anyway and he said it sounded like I was alright. The brusing isn't

near any main organs.

Well, I guess I just had to get this all off my chest plus my other cousin is

also on a respirator too and they don't think he will make it either. He had

heart surgery and didn't do well.

I just really am letting myself get down, and I know I have to snap out of

it. It just seems like too many things at once. Now also this darn snow. I

love snow, but not when I was expecting some visitors on my birthday and now

they are not sure if they can come.

I know, I am just a whiner. I am sorry this is so long.

I hope everyone in the group are having painfree days.

bye for now.

Sincerely Colletti

Anjillah@...