bumpy night

[Guest guest]

Hi All...as you know, Saturday is my 34th wedding anniversary with

Vince..my hubby who passed on at 26 from leukemia after 7 1/2 years of

marriage. My family was to have our Christmas party on the 22nd, but

changd it to Saturday the 21st. I really need to acknowledge this very

precious event in my life. Most of my family doesn't like to talk about

it much as it is so sad. But I want & need to celebrate it, but don't

want to push it as I just end up hearing silence, and then feeling

crummy.

So, with the sweet advice of our little Heidi, I pulled up the poem I

wrote about Vince, and printed a aniversary note. I printed the

following up, and am just quietly going to give one to all there.

It says:

On Our 34th Wedding Anniversary

The Dream-Come-True Dance

we were dancing on dreams, and

breathing in joy -

no need for money as you

really can live on love...

a malevolent storm

pulled him hard from my arms,

i screamed til my voice became jagged, and

fell into the arms of

my two year old angel...

then Jesus said NO! to the evil attack,

took him into His arms

and to Heaven they flew...

when I get to Heaven

will he know who I am?

he was so beautiful, inside and out -

i look nothing like

the too-young bride-widow

he last gazed upon...

but love crosses oceans of

extraordinary time,

and is not deterred

by the timing of man...

so, i expect he will know me

and hold me so close,

and we will dance on

the dreams-come-true

that only Heaven can possess.

(Then, I have a small wedding photo printed underneath)

Then my name signed " With love... " , and dated.

I really think it is quite lovely. I'm sending a copy to Vince's folks

and sister, too.

Do you think this is ok? Is it selfish of me or too sad? I really try

not to push the matter as I know his death was a painful event for all

who loved him...but I feel so strongly that I need to ackowledge &

celebrate our marriage which was everything to me. I'd appreciate ANY

thoughts.

All My Love...

Tess