Seems early yet worried sick

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So I was in an abusive alcoholic marriage for years. The last several years

(maybe 5) I had held true to my vows while becoming more convinced she won't

actually do the work to fight her disease. No sex. Except masturbation. No

problems there except the constant feeling that I wasn't good enough... low

romantic self esteem. My self esteem virtually everywhere else in my life has

been good.

So after a couple days of treatment for severe depression they offered and

recommended Zoloft. They said not to read the reviews because one or two people

could skew the results and lead me away from a potentially positive result in

fighting depression. Bad choice... I went in based on one person's

recommendation... without my prior investigation.

And two weeks into my intense treatment for depression I realized that I've been

divorced from this woman for many years... in all senses except legally. And

within days I luckily met a nice girl... we hit it off well. Going " slow " didn't

seem to work in in a few days we were sexually active. First time - all good...

reminded me of the old good times. I was only on Zoloft for a week. A couple

days later... completely zero response. Could not get hard. At all. Man... years

of nothing... now opportunity exists and I'm shot. Only 43 years old. And A

typical horny guy in a bad relationship... I masturbated a few times a week

until I met this girl. Visual and audible stimulus from porn sites and I was

hard. Heck visual from a mag was enough. Stories worked great. Now I was

caressing and otherwise enjoying this beautiful woman for 45 minutes - and zero

response. She tried to help. Nothing. Embarrassing and disappointing. She was a

good sport... yet damn. Not good for my romantic self esteem... nor my long

burning desire to get back in the game. And definitely not so good when

attempting to please my new lady.

So a friend had samples of Viagra... tried them - could get hard again after a

lot of caressing and eating her out. Not bad sex yet my orgasm came earlier than

I wanted. Tried to hold off by thinking of other things and slowing down to a

stop. Yet just being inside her dead still and I'd blow. Really? Unfortunately

yes. A couple nights I got it up twice... and even a couple times the next

morning.

Without Viagra - nothing. To test out what I'd read of side effects by that

point on-line... back to the porn sites and attempt at masturbation. Nothing.

Again... really? Yup. Two weeks prior - at attention in seconds. Now - nothing

at all.

Talked to the doc - for this specific reason got off Zoloft within 14 days... on

to a week of 50 and now completed a week of 100mg of Welbutrin. No change. What

the heck. So I found this site... maybe seems early... yet I'm frustrated that

after 2 weeks away from Zoloft (and only on the drug for 2 weeks total) that

I've apparently now become sexually impaired. For how long? Stuff I read here

seems like it may be permanent? Oh boy. Not good. Heck - that's horribly bad. I

don't want to pay big bucks for Cialis... or live on the 6 measily pills per

month that insurance pays for (glad to have that help... yet come on!).

Used up the trial pack of Viagra... now have a script for cialis... and a few

pills. Unfortunately circumstances haven't panned out in the last 3-4 days to

try it out... yet I expect good things after my Viagra experience.

My anxiety is through the roof on this topic. That's an incredibly small amount

of time to incur such a horrible side effect. Almost unbelievable. Shame on me

for not doing my prior research. Shame on the doctor for recommending such a

drug as the first option... to a guy recovering from a horrible relationship and

vocally expressing desire to restart sexual activity.