Compassion

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<< who said lies? I said kind. truth... I cannot know yours, nor you mine.

but

I'll be we could figure out how to be kind to each other.

lightly spoke,

phoebe >>

Morning Phoebe and Marilyn,

Well spoken. Actually, I can never know a whole complete truth, with all its

permutations in even something so small as a blade of grass.

Toni, all our children and all of us suffer tragedy. I would gladly, very

gladly have suffered my children's tragedies for them. It would, in fact,

have been greatly preferable to watching them bear their own. I very rarely

speak of my children in public, it is their right to speak their lives, not

mine. But, I took my son to a therapist when he was five while my car had

300,000 miles on it, and there was no hope, then, of being able to purchase a

new car. Because I thought it so valuable and so important that he be given

someone to speak to who was wiser than I.

I think from this experience alone, this son knows I love him. He'll say,

" yes, of course you love me, no matter what I do. " He's currently eight, and

I've let him now spend a year with his father, which I hope and pray has been

good for both of them. I've begged the ex- to go to therapy with Nicolas

(more for the ex-) but he has adamantly refused. Just one insight into the

ex-. he got a porsche, when i started the computer company in my 20s, he

flew out of here one morning in a rage, he totalled the porsche, it has a

steel frame, this is not easy to do. He landed in the hospital and brought

three other people there with him, at 8:00 a.m. Bifurcated laceration of

the spleen. I went and massaged him all day, told the surgeon to leave in

the spleen as I thought he would heal rapidly. Surgeon thought I was crazy.

He was indeed completely healed by morning. It was, I believe, the third car

he totalled. But, he's sure he doesn't need therapy.

love and light,

rainbo