Re: Yesterday's appointment...>Lorraine

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Good Morning Lorraine...

Good Grief... you have caught C.R.A.F.T. from a few of us on Friday evening. I missed an appointment too yesterday, not an important one, but one I have had for weeks. I knew I had to go, I even chatted to about it about 2 hours before I was supposed to be there, and then poof.... gone! It happens to us all.

Such a nuisance though. Now... don't panic. It is only 6 days now till you go, and you will be just fine. Enjoy it whilst you can. From what I can gather you have a very rough trot for quite a while, so relax and enjoy. I am doing the Lean Cuisine diet as well... actually quite ok. I love the fish ones.

Anyway, I must run. I have to get to see Andi later and I have things to do this morning... I have a list today ~ LOL!

Love to you...

Mel

>> Hi all> > Well the lovely Mimi collected me as arranged and we got to know > each other a little better. Thank you Mimi. Then she kindly > dropped me back to St Hospital for my 4.45pm appointment...> > Well good one Lorraine 4.45 on Tuesday the 30TH - NEXT WEEK. I was > soooo p***ed off and annoyed with myself. The weather was appalling > and it took me more than an hour and a half to get home in peak hour > traffic.> > And I had an absolute meltdown in the car. I had had it all > planned. A limited period to relax and enjoy some of the foods that > I hadn't previously been able to manage. I deliberately didn't > weigh myself until yesterday morning so I wouldn't get hung up over > it. So I weighed myself - 2kgs heavier, about what I expected I > guess, but that's okay I told myself - today you have some fill and > wipe the slate clean and knock off those couple of kilos and all's > well.> > So I get in the car and the traffic is thick (like me - can't > believe I've got the wrong week) and then I fall apart. Still the > fat girl - always will be. Full of self-loathing, peeved that I > don't have the fill I was counting on, feel weak that this food > thing still controls and dictates everything, knew it was only a > matter of time before I failed and the weight returns... I cried, > thumped the window, wound down the window and screamed at the cars. > Should I stop at the night chemist on the way home and buy > Optifast??? I can't trust myself to get it right until next week. > How much more damage can I do????? Or on the other hand should I buy > some chips - I can eat those now, the damage has already been done. > And some chocolate to console myself. What a absolute mess I was > and the whole food/fat monster took over my being.> > What a sad case! > > Anyway pleased to report I resorted to neither of these options. > Had a hot bath and Lean Cuisine lasagne - retired early, and I might > add felt hungry. Can't eat if you're sleeping. I was wishing I had > my tight band back, please!> > Anyway that's my sh***y Tuesday - except for the lovely interlude > with Mimi. I'm going to try and drop a kilo between now and next > week. The party is over, fill or no fill.> > Life with the band - never boring - and the fat lady is always > lurking - the self loathing was scary - haven't been there for a > while. > > Have a good day everyone - thanks for listening,> Lorraine>