Having a hard time dealing with sound sensitivity

[Guest guest]

I don't know how to deal with this condition anymore. The demands upon

me keep increasing and I am unable to cope. I have one good day where

I'm able to handle a little more than usual and it expected of me to be

like that from now on even though I fluctuate back into bad days with

sounds. I'm exhausted from having to endure so much pain for the sake of

others and not be able to take care of myself while dealing with this

condition.

I don't know about any of you, but I have a habit and taking my

headphones and sound generators off and slapping my ears until I can

externalize the pain when the internal pain gets too overwhelming. I

have no way to reach into my ears and brain to massage the pain away.

External pain is easier to do that with.

A few things that had been helpful to me have been taken away and I'm

starting to feel like I'm hanging over the cliff with one hand painfully

hanging on. About the only thing I can do now is to become a recluse,

which in turn will upset my family. But it is the only thing I can do so

I don't have to endure so much pain.

It is one thing to cope with normal life pains, but then to have to

endure 4S and Hyperacusis on top of that can be way too much for one

person to cope with. I've been dealing with this hard core for over 20

years and it has disrupted every facet of my life.

Today has been especially bad being a grown man crying and sobbing in

private away from everyone because my ears hurt so much and everyone not

respecting that.

Thank you everyone for listening and all the help you give to this

group. It's one more light to brighten a bad day.

-Randall