virtual hugs

[Guest guest]

I wish I could give every one of you a real hug, but instead, I'll

give you a cyber hug. Here it is! Thank you so much for all your

support, help, listening to me vent, making me feel like I'm not a

big loser or a complete freak. I can't tell you how much this past

year has meant to me once I found this group of fellow 4S sufferers.

After having an especially bad trigger day at work yesterday, I went

home in tears that night, and got a really big hug from , and it

was such a balm. And I wished at that moment that I could give all

of you the same kind of hug, because I know you are all suffering

too. And then I cried more because I know how painful this is for all

of us and I wish I could help.

I know I am lucky because I have someone in my life who is my rock,

and understands (as best he can) that I'm suffering from this

nightmare of triggers.

Anyway, I just wanted to say THANK YOU to all of you who listen and

love and understand. I truly wish we could all meet somewhere

someday, sort of a 4S reunion (or union, I guess, since it would be

the first!). I feel I've grown to know so many of you.

But for now, here's a virtual hug to the only people in my life who

REALLY understand this ugly secret we all share.