Re: OK, I feel horrible and hate myself for thinking this

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Kat, thank you so much...I really enjoyed reading this...

e

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Please continue to ramble...what you say in beautifully true. It is so sad.

e

Subject: Re: OK, I feel horrible and hate myself for thinking thisTo: AutismBehaviorProblems Date: Thursday, October 2, 2008, 4:37 PM

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[Guest guest]

101 percent with you on this one! It is wonderful you are making a

beautiful differance in lives of those you touch,at home and away.

All life is precious to me.{even plankton}

You are planting the garden, love bares fruit in the hearts of

children,your pantry is blessed.

Tishanne

-- In AutismBehaviorProblems , Two Blessings

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> Tishanne...this breaks my heart.  We are blessed in that we live in

an area where churches embrace those with " issues "  --- Just a few

weeks ago, we were in my little girls SS class teaching...we went to

" big group " time, there was this little boy....precious,, precious. 

Was out of control, as he was probably MR, with some Autism,

etc...Now that I have my little man it's easier to spot.  There could

not have been more love for  him...I held him, and gave him deep

pressure kind of hugs...I was able to explain to his teachers that he

needs those kinds of hugs to regulate (it did work for me with

him)...also that they needed fidget toys etc..........EVERYONE was

receptive.  I know it isn't that way at all churches...I'm not a

Pollyanna, believe me, I get that it isn't...but for the most part,

in our area we have many churches who embrace kiddos with special

needs.  Actually we have many who have individual special needs

programs.....

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> In my opinion this is outrageous that those who claim to love God,

can treat these babies this way....again I know it happens, but I

just wanted to say that it doesn't happen everywhere....it screams to

heaven.  Nothing worse than hurting a child...nothing worse....

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> I'm so sorry to hear this Tishanne, and want you to know.

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Oh, I hope it didn't sound like I was patting myself on the back...I wasn't I thank you for your kind words...once you have a child with special needs, all of them are the same to you...with the same needs. I'm very grateful that my church is receptive to the needs of all of us, not just a few! Also grateful about an article I read the other day...there is a church who says if you set up a special needs program for Autistic children, it will benefit all the others with special needs as well............it doesn't work vice versa. The Autistic child's needs must be met, and with that, all of the needs of the class is met. Such a good program...I think we'll see more and more of these...I'm defiantly being the voice around here!!!!!! It's my job...a voice for my little

pacing man..................Boy oh boy is he stimming and pacing...I guess it's cause he can...it concerns me greatly...OK, off topic...

Tishanne....I so wish I could just sit with you and have coffee....or tea You have a lot of love to give....

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No, I have tried to drive myself crazy, but I have failed at that too. Pat K

I am on on Lictamal or generic term is Lamotrigine, this causes my mood to stabilize and delay episodes that may arise, but is used for people who have epilepsy to contain their seizures...it seems that all the stress with my 4 kids in diapers/working a full time job, drove the bi-polar out in me causing me to have a manic depression, no eating, no sleeping for weeks. Then I got caught up on reading on the internet about reversing autism thru Generation Rescue and got totally obsessed with finding all about Dan doctors, detox, (needless to say I never took my son to one, but still am curious, to scared) blah blah blah and then finally drove myself to a crisis center when I had a full blown episode. My best friend is on Prozac and she is quite content with that.Any how, I think my meds are working now and see a Psychologist for therapy. When I had my episode, I was put on Haldo(for hallucinations) and Lithium (for Bi-Polar).

Has anyone ever drove themselves crazy/insane or had Bi-polar or Pyschosis or had a manic episode from being so obsessed with helping our Autisitic kids? Also, has anyone ever started hearing or seeing things? Please share.

Thanks,

From: <alli110200verizon (DOT) net>Subject: Re: OK, I feel horrible and hate myself for thinking thisTo: AutismBehaviorProblems Date: Thursday, October 2, 2008, 8:30 AMWow, I wish I had read this yesterday. I had a day like that yesterday. My son refused to do his homework for no apparent reason, and threw tantrum after tantrum for HOURS. Crying, threatening to run away, it was a mess. I just wanted to run away. On top of all this, he smacked his sister when she was just trying to help, and I thought I was going to go insane. I am a SAHM and we don't have friends or family in the area so I'm truly

alone. I can't even leave my kids alone with my husband because he loses his temper.

Anyway, I know how you feel and I'll be praying for you! {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

OK, I feel horrible and hate myself for thinking this

>I just am at my wits end with him. We have had such a horrible month

> with his tantrums, lack of listening, hurting his sister.

>

> I sometimes just want to give up. I can't stand him anymore. I hate

> myself for thinking like this. It's been 8 years like this. I hate my

> marriage. We argue all the time because of him.

>

> I just feel like I want to give him up. I can't take it anymore!!!!

>

> I feel like I'm gonna have a nervous breakdown, my head hurts all the

> time, I can't sleep, I don't even like to have him around me.

>

> Is this normal? I don't feel normal right now. I feel like I'm

ready

> to have a stroke, I've got chest pains and I can feel my blood

> pressure rising.

>

> I just want to GIVE UP!!

>

> Our home has been broken, I feel like either running away or just dying.

>

> I don't like to feel like this, but I don't know what to do

anymore

> with him.

>

> What do I do?? :(

>

>

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I am on on Lictamal or generic term is Lamotrigine, this causes my mood to stabilize and delay episodes that may arise, but is used for people who have epilepsy to contain their seizures...it seems that all the stress with my 4 kids in diapers/working a full time job, drove the bi-polar out in me causing me to have a manic depression, no eating, no sleeping for weeks. Then I got caught up on reading on the internet about reversing autism thru Generation Rescue and got totally obsessed with finding all about Dan doctors, detox, (needless to say I never took my son to one, but still am curious, to scared) blah blah blah and then finally drove myself to a crisis center when I had a full blown episode. My best friend is on Prozac and she is quite content with that.Any how, I think my meds are working now and see a Psychologist for

therapy. When I had my episode, I was put on Haldo(for hallucinations) and Lithium (for Bi-Polar).

Has anyone ever drove themselves crazy/insane or had Bi-polar or Pyschosis or had a manic episode from being so obsessed with helping our Autisitic kids? Also, has anyone ever started hearing or seeing things? Please share.

Thanks,

Subject: Re: OK, I feel horrible and hate myself for thinking thisTo: AutismBehaviorProblems Date: Thursday, October 2, 2008, 8:30 AMWow, I wish I had read this yesterday. I had a day like that yesterday. My son refused to do his homework for no apparent reason, and threw tantrum after tantrum for HOURS. Crying, threatening to run away, it was a mess. I just wanted to run away. On top of all this, he smacked his sister when she was just trying to help, and I thought I was going to go insane. I am a SAHM and we don't have friends or family in the area so I'm truly

alone. I can't even leave my kids alone with my husband because he loses his temper.

Anyway, I know how you feel and I'll be praying for you! {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

OK, I feel horrible and hate myself for thinking this

>I just am at my wits end with him. We have had such a horrible month

> with his tantrums, lack of listening, hurting his sister.

>

> I sometimes just want to give up. I can't stand him anymore. I hate

> myself for thinking like this. It's been 8 years like this. I hate my

> marriage. We argue all the time because of him.

>

> I just feel like I want to give him up. I can't take it anymore!!!!

>

> I feel like I'm gonna have a nervous breakdown, my head hurts all the

> time, I can't sleep, I don't even like to have him around me.

>

> Is this normal? I don't feel normal right now. I feel like I'm

ready

> to have a stroke, I've got chest pains and I can feel my blood

> pressure rising.

>

> I just want to GIVE UP!!

>

> Our home has been broken, I feel like either running away or just dying.

>

> I don't like to feel like this, but I don't know what to do

anymore

> with him.

>

> What do I do?? :(

>

>

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e,You are SO right! You put it perfectly and just hit it right on! God is love and he created every single one of us in his image! AND..... Another thing I try really hard to remember, even though it is hard during those bad times with , there is a reason God gave precious little to me for me to be his mommy and Jim to be his daddy!Stacie BAurora ILSent via BlackBerry by AT&TDate: Thu, 2 Oct 2008 19:38:56 -0700 (PDT)To: <AutismBehaviorProblems >Subject: Re: OK, I feel horrible and hate myself for thinking this I am sad that anyone would say you are bad, and saying that God hated you because of it?! Makes me really sad. An author I recommend highly is Yancy... If anyone could be hated for anything it would be me, actually it would be everyone...I've made so many mistakes. So many things I would go back and re-do. But you know what...He loves me. I know you don't like to hear it about you, so I won't go there But I do know that He loves me...not because I deserve it, but because He is LOVE, because he formed me in my mother's womb...he loves me.... Shame on that teacher, shame on her. God's intent was that all children be allowed to come to him...."do not hinder them..." She hindered you, and my prayer is for her...as that is not looked highly upon by my precious Lord. Just so you know....upon reading your email, I felt tremendous love for you --- If I, a mere human felt that....I cannot imagine how much more God feels it. blessings to you sweet lady. e

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I feel the same way Stacie...too bad we don't live closer...We are in the southern part of our wonderful country...Maybe someday I can fly into Illinois for a play date!!! Just kidding... on the plane would be too much anytime soon....

J

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Yeah I wish we did live closer! Where do you live again e? I forgot!StacieSent via BlackBerry by AT&TDate: Fri, 3 Oct 2008 15:41:55 -0700 (PDT)To: <AutismBehaviorProblems >Subject: Re: OK, I feel horrible and hate myself for thinking this I feel the same way Stacie...too bad we don't live closer...We are in the southern part of our wonderful country...Maybe someday I can fly into Illinois for a play date!!! Just kidding... on the plane would be too much anytime soon.... J

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Hi, Stacie...I'm a southern gal

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Subject: Re: OK, I feel horrible and hate myself for thinking thisTo: AutismBehaviorProblems Date: Saturday, October 4, 2008, 1:55 PM

Yeah I wish we did live closer! Where do you live again e? I forgot!Stacie Sent via BlackBerry by AT & T

From: Two Blessings <ljdjd1234yahoo (DOT) com>Date: Fri, 3 Oct 2008 15:41:55 -0700 (PDT)To: <AutismBehaviorProbl emsyahoogroups (DOT) com>Subject: Re: OK, I feel horrible and hate myself for thinking this

I feel the same way Stacie...too bad we don't live closer...We are in the southern part of our wonderful country...Maybe someday I can fly into Illinois for a play date!!! Just kidding... on the plane would be too much anytime soon....

J