nerves on end

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Does anyone have this problem or am I losing it?

I had an appointment to see my new therapist for the second time and I woke up

early to make sure all my " parts " would function by the time I had to be there.

I woke up at 6 a.m., and the drive took 45 minutes, had to be there at 11 a.m.,

and I was so nervous and scared, I guess it was because of the drive by myself

which I hadn't done in a long time, and literally started to throw up to the

point that I had to cancel. That happened at 9 a.m. This has happened to me

before in stressful situations, but it's the last thing I need right now.

I just was denied again after the second time doing it myself, but I had a

meeting with a 25 year old attorney who told me her office would decide if they

would pick up my case. The letter stated for me to call the 800 # and I will

and they will give me someone to speak to. Between the CMT, the herniated disk,

degenerative disk disease, and scoliosis.....and 2 seperate court cases going

on, I've had it. Why doesn't anyone understand what they can't see in black and

white.

Sorry everyone, but I'm not only venting, but really need someone out there to

tell me I'm not losing my mind. I'm taking the holidays for granted by using it

to " PULL THE COVERS OVER MY HEAD! " ....I' ve got my January 14th meeting with

lawyers for my workmens' comp case, another appt, on January 30th to a dentist

I've never been to about an hour away, then another one on March 5th to see a

new dr. who will take medicaid and operate on my back, and between those I have

3 more therapist appts, which are a drive also. You guys know how hard it is

sometimes to get the body moving and I hate the early morning appt's when I'm

definitely not up to it.

Like I said, does anyone out there go through anything like this.. I'm not fond

of throwing up first thing in the morning because I'm so scared. Too much

stuff. Believe me, I know there a millions of people in the world who have more

problems than I do and I'm not trying to be selfish, but damn I get scared!!!

Please don't think I'm saying Poor ME, just want to know if I'm not the only

one, than I can go on. Thanks for anyone that can give me any input on this.

And by the way, " MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A VERY VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! "

Also,, I WON A RADIO CALL IN CONTEST TODAY, THE 3rd CALLER, TO A FANCY SMANCY

PLACE HERE IN THE KEYS, it's on the beach with the whole

speel.........fireworks, dinner, cocktails, and someone named MARTIN who was a

finalist on American Idol, plus other goodies. I think this year will be a good

one!!

Love to All,