Inspirational Doctor story - Dream defies odds

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Dream defies loss of limbs

Kellie Lim, a triple amputee at 8, is now ready to graduate from

medical school.

By Larry Gordon, Times Staff Writer

http://www.latimes.com/news/local/la-me-kellie27may27,1,6513369.story

Lim knows all too well what it is like to be a very sick child.

Struck with a ravaging bacterial infection that destroys limbs, she

became a triple amputee at age 8 and soon faced a life of

prosthetics, wheelchairs and often-painful rehabilitation.

But from that suffering, Lim forged a life of achievement. On

Friday, she will graduate from UCLA's medical school and then will

begin a residency program at the medical center there.

Her chosen specialty? Pediatrics, with a possible concentration

later on childhood allergies and infectious diseases.

" Just having that experience of being someone so sick and how

devastating that can be — not just for me but for my family too —

gives me a perspective that other people don't necessarily have, "

the 26-year-old Michigan native said recently.

And of all the topics she sampled during medical school, only her

work with children left her " smiling at the end of the day. "

Lim carried out her medical training with a determination that awed

her professors and fellow students and won her the school's top

prize for excellence in pediatrics.

Opting not to use a prosthetic arm, she showed that she can perform

most medical procedures with one hand, including taking blood and

administering injections. She lives on her own in a Westwood

apartment with no special features for the handicapped and drives a

car with only one adaptation: a turning knob on the steering wheel.

She is learning to swim, is trying horseback riding and even went

tandem skydiving recently.

Lim, whose legs were amputated about 6 inches below her knees, gave

up her wheelchair years ago and walks so well down the long and

crowded hospital hallways — with a slightly bouncy stride — that new

classmates and patients often don't have a clue for weeks that

artificial limbs fill her shoes and pant legs.

She reluctantly will accept a seat during hospital bedside rounds

when painful ulcers erupt on the skin that touches her prosthetics.

(She has undergone grafts and additional surgeries over the years to

help with the fittings.)

Colleagues say Lim's calmness in a hospital's hectic environment

puts others at ease.

" With Kellie, at first you notice her hand is not there. But after

about five minutes, she is so comfortable and so competent that you

take her at face value and don't ask questions so much. She has an

aura of competence about her that you don't worry, " said Dr. Elijah

Wasson, who supervised Lim during a rotation in internal medicine at

Olive View-UCLA Medical Center in Sylmar.

Lim attributes some of her gumption to her dreadful childhood bout

of bacterial meningitis. The resulting toxic shock, with internal

clotting and bleeding, wrecked her extremities, leading to the

amputations. When she went back last year to the Michigan hospital

to read her voluminous medical file, she found an evaluation stating

that 8-year-old Kellie Lim had an 85% chance of dying of the

meningitis.

Her parents urged her not to give up during her four months of

hospitalization and the following years of rehabilitation. Just five

months after she became sick, Lim returned to regular school in

suburban Detroit.

Previously right-handed, she learned to write and do chores with her

somewhat diminished left hand, having lost three fingertips on it to

amputation, along with her entire right hand and forearm. She has

been fitted with prosthetic arms, but does not wear one in public

anymore and uses it at home just for rare tasks, such as assembling

an IKEA desk by herself.

" I hate failing, " she said. " It's one of those things that's so

ingrained in me. "

That view was intensified by another disability in the family. Her

mother, Sandy, went blind in her 20s and, except for not driving,

sought to continue as normal a life as possible in raising three

children. She cooked, cleaned and walked the youngsters to school.

" She definitely was a great role model for me, " Lim said. " It was

hard for her to overcome her blindness, and I think she definitely

instilled a strength in me. "

Just before her mother's death three years ago, Lim promised her

that she would finish medical school — a pledge she will fulfill

when she and her UCLA classmates take the Hippocratic oath.

" She wanted me to be a pediatrician, " Lim said, " and I know that

somewhere out there, she knows I am going to be one. "

Lim is a soft-spoken, gracious woman, but she can be fierce in

resisting being typecast as a disabled doctor who should focus just

on rehabilitation medicine. She also is reluctant to accept what she

sees as unnecessary assistance, even if it sometimes takes her

longer than others to get things done.

Neil , senior associate dean of student affairs at UCLA's

Geffen School of Medicine, recalled how Lim resisted some of

his early efforts to adapt or substitute medical equipment for

her. " I think at the beginning we were perhaps a little at odds

because I wanted to help her a lot with what I felt she needed, " he

said. " She wanted me to help her, but only with what she was willing

to use. "

In some cases, that meant finding older equipment, such as blood

pressure cuffs that seemed better for a one-handed person, or

practicing IV insertions.

One hurdle involved percussing, the lung exam done by placing one

hand on a patient's chest and using the other hand to tap on it.

suggested using a hand-held ultrasound machine, but Lim

declined. Instead, Veterans Affairs experts in Westwood designed a

short metal-and-plastic extender that Lim straps onto her residual

limb to help with the tapping. It is not pretty, but it works fine.

Of course, Lim is not able to perform surgery or intubate a patient

by herself. But those skills probably won't be needed much in her

likely fields. " There are certain things she can't do, but there are

a million things she can do, " said.

Lim was assigned, on her final medical school rotation, to the

pediatric allergy and immunology division under the supervision of

Dr. L. . On a recent Monday afternoon, she did the

preliminary interviews and examinations by herself, deftly taking

notes, pointing a light into ears, listening to hearts with a

stethoscope.

She made no attempt to hide the residual limb, which she skillfully

maneuvered to hold down papers; following medical protocol, she

briskly washed the right limb and her left hand before touching

patients or instruments.

First came a 14-year-old boy, who despite severe asthma, allergies,

nosebleeds and migraines wants to play more baseball. He displayed

the closedmouthed shrugging of boys his age, but his concerned

mother detailed his middle-of-the-night breathing emergencies. Lim

soon spotted evidence in his nose of inflamed tissue and recent

bleeding. After a consultation with , the youth was

prescribed a trial of new asthma medicine.

The boy's mother, St. Louis, said she and her family talked

about the doctor during the drive home as a " phenomenal " role

model: " The conversation was that you can do anything you put your

mind to. "

Lim's next patient that day was a heartbreaker: a 5-year-old girl

born with severe immunodeficiencies and numerous other medical

problems.

The tiny child, wearing a green pantsuit, white-and-pink sneakers

and thick glasses, is not toilet trained and does not speak, though

she seemed to understand what her mother told her in Spanish and

English. Her parents, clearly devoted to her, worried about seizures

she suffered during a recent vacation. The girl whimpered a bit

while Lim examined her but did not resist. and Lim scheduled

more testing.

With everything else going on, the girl's parents seemed almost

oblivious to Lim's missing hand.

Out in the world, Lim's partial arm sometimes attracts odd comments

and stares, but her patients have shown overtly negative reactions

only a couple of times, she said. Some small children were

frightened by it and had to be soothed. Lim said she knows that some

parents may be wary of her and that she will have to prove her

competence.

" I'm not going to force myself on them in any way, but it still

affects me personally, " she said. " It kind of wears you down a

little bit. "

Still, Lim clearly identifies with the struggles of families with

very ill youngsters.

" It is amazing to see family dynamics like that, " she said a few

minutes after the girl left. " It's very tragic, but the parents love

their kids and will do anything for them and know so much about

them. "

Her own parents, immigrants from China, loom large in her life.

Besides stressing her mother's influence, she thanks her father,

Norman, a chemical engineer who kept the family going — financially

and emotionally — through its unusual burdens.

Lim also credits her older sister, Nellie, who was protective of her

and supportive of her moves toward independence, such as attending

college away from home, at Northwestern University in Illinois.

Nellie Lim, now an attorney in Michigan, recalls the family

philosophy:

" It wouldn't do you any good to sit and cry about it. We just went

on and kept doing what we had to do like any other family. You need

to make dinner. Go to the basketball game. Go on vacation. "

Kellie Lim recently completed the last assignments for her medical

degree and took a four-day pre-graduation celebratory Mexican cruise

with classmates.

And this spring she began taking swimming lessons at a public pool

in Westwood, even though she had been afraid of the water. During a

recent session, Lim took off her prosthetic legs and was lowered

into the water on a mechanized chair.

At first, Lim relied on a blue Styrofoam " noodle " to help her float.

Then her coach took it away so Lim could practice a dolphin-like

propulsion that used her torso, her one full arm and the remnants of

her legs to move up the lane with a force that had some other

swimmers doing double takes. It was tough work, but most of the time

Lim was smiling.