Re: Big Belief Shift

[Guest guest]

No other words can express the message at all. GOOD JOB!

- Jess

http://groups.myspace.com/insideoutweightloss

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> Got to share my breakthrough with you all. I've been on here since

> conception of this group, although quietly reading for the past

couple

> of months. On Tuesday, I was meeting my cousin for a long walk,

lunch

> and shopping date in a city 90 minutes from my home. So I plugged

in my

> iPod, and backed up to episode 13, I think. Around there. Anyway,

I

> listened to episodes all the way there, and all the way home again.

> Since my husband is in China for a couple of weeks, I plugged it

into my

> speakers when I lay down for sleep that night, and listened to

another

> episode. Well, friends, I think my subconscious drank it all in.

> Yesterday morning as I was preparing my breakfast, I had an

epiphany.

> After breakfast, I wrote this in my fatsecret.com journal:

>

> I can feel my mind switching over. I'm beginning to feel deep down

that

> I am being so very good and kind and loving to myself. I am a slow

> loser, but it's not even bothering me this time. I am feeding my

body

> wholesome food and lots of water, and giving it regular exercise. I

am

> getting plenty of rest, too. And I'm beginning to feel my spirit, as

> well as my body, respond to the care I am taking with it. You know,

I

> think I have treated everyone else, including my doggie, better

than I

> have been treating myself. This morning it took me 15 minutes or so

to

> do all the chopping of fresh veggies to make my omelet. Each fresh

> ingredient was prepared with care, and as I was sauteeing them in

the

> skillet, then adding the eggs, I felt LOVED. BY ME!! I am evolving,

and

> I know my body is responding to that affection and positive

attention. I

> am no longer going to call myself fat or lazy or old or ugly. I

truly,

> in my spirit, feel my true and beautiful self emerging, like the new

> grass or buds on the trees. God has all along seen my true self,

but I

> had buried her under self-condemnation and harsh judgement. Those

days

> are over. This is not about losing pounds now. It's not about

fitting

> into a smaller size. It's about treating myself with the care and

> attention that I deserve. It's honoring the gift of God's

> creation--ME!!!

>

> That feeling stayed with me all day long. Through exercise,

reading,

> food preparation, housework, etc. This morning, I pondered it again

> while making breakfast--sort of checking in with myself. When I

went to

> fatsecret, I posted this:

>

> I still feel that same self-love that I encountered yesterday

morning,

> and I believe I've actually made a breakthrough in becoming friends

with

> my body. I wish I could convey in words how differently I feel now,

but

> I know I've made a mental/spiritual connection that was broken

before. I

> really feel good about me, right here, right now. I'm not thinking

the

> old thoughts that broke my spirit, like " People are probably gagging

> when they see me, I'm so disgusting. " " I'm sure those girls are

saying,

> 'Oh, God, I hope we don't let ourselves go like THAT when we're

older!' "

> Those kind of negative messages that have damaged my own spirit and

> confidence. I am LOVED--by God, by my husband, my family and

friends,

> and finally by my own self. I am not a screw-up, I am not lazy. I am

> loved, and good and worthwhile. I am pretty, too. Just as I am,

here and

> now. And I am good enough to pay attention to, good enough to treat

with

> respect and kindness. Good enough to feed wholesome well prepared

food,

> and good enough to take the time to exercise and attend to. I am

worth

> every bit of it, and worth the serenity of a well lived life.

>

> This time last year, I weighed 232 pounds. I had lost 29 pounds on

yet

> another diet, then stopped working at it. When I finally got the

desire

> to weigh after listening for a couple of months, the scale read 218

> pounds. I am 206 pounds today. But regardless, I am at peace with

> myself, and feeling so ONE with my own spirit, mind, emotions and

> body...that inner alignment that speaks of. So I encourage

you,

> if you have entered this process half-heartedly, go back. Listen

again.

> Listen in a relaxed state of mind, just being open. Let

speak to

> your spirit. It will change you!!

>

> Love to you all,

> Michele

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