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I haven't posted on here much since my now seven year old daughter had

been doing so well with her OCD. For the last two years she's dealt

with OCD mostly with intrusive thoughts starting in the winter time

through late winter early spring. Then it literally seems to disappear.

We just had a third child (a major unplanned suprise) last week. My

daughter was doing so well and it seemed there was no sign of OCD. Out

of nowhere about two days ago it was like it reappeared out of nowhere.

My daughter started saying and doing things that were unmistakably OCD.

I am heartbroken and scared. I knew that it would show again but I

guess deep down you hope it won't. The thing I can't believe it it's

almost down to the exact day it started last year. I don't understand

what happens to her that it just comes and takes her over like this

about a week before Christmas.

I'm really worried because where we live there are no doctors around

that have a clue about treating OCD or children with OCD. We had taken

her about 2 hours away last winter to Mayo Clinic where she saw a good

doctor and he really helped us all cope and get through it. The thing

is there's absolutely noway we can afford to go there this year. I

don't know what we're going to do.

What does a person do when they can't afford the help their child

needs? It's so wrong that so many people have to go through this and

millions of other health issues with no way to get help for their

child. We were so relieved last year to have found a place that knew

what they were doing. Now to know they are there but out of our reach,

it's heartbreaking and scary.

I'm also going through a bad case of post partum depression and that's

not helping. I'm just so sad. I'd forgotten how when the OCD comes my

daughter's whole demeanor changes, like she's not herself anymore.

Sometimes there will be moments when I see the real her but they are

few and far between. And this is just the beginning.

Does anyone have any advice for me? I just don't know how I'm going to

handle this. I'm so depressed and worried that I can't imagine how I'm

going to be able to help her get through this. I am currently on meds

for depression and they were raised last week in hopes of helping.