Guest guest Posted December 29, 2008 Report Share Posted December 29, 2008 WOW Ang, You have grwon and become! This is amazing! Good for you! Slap yourself on the hiney and say ya done good babe!!! I actually gained 1.2 lbs over Christmas, but it was ok. I like you am learning ot love and accept myself. I was a baking fool, I made all the things I didn't like. Being snow bound for 5 days brought out the baker in me! But we had yummy food, excellant wine and company so what more did we need? I was tempted to beat myself up (a life long addiction for me) but each time I wanted to I would remind myself! Let it be!! Honey, I like it! Good for you!!!!! Strong work!!!! LE On Mon, Dec 29, 2008 at 10:40 AM, brandismom1990 wrote: > I lean towards some mild depression – so when the shorter days and > holidays come, it can really do a number on me. And life feels super- > overwhelming this year for family and financial reasons. > Used to be, when I felt this way, I'd set these clearly unreasonable > holiday workout, business and food " management " goals and IF I > achieved them, I felt resentful that I hadn't enjoyed my holidays and > if I didn't achieve them, I'd feel guilty. > > So this holiday season, my theme was " Let it Be " > > Whenever I felt down in the dumps, I said to myself " Let it Be " . If I > thought exercising would make me feel better, I did it. If I thought > laying on the couch and watching old Christmas movies would help, I > did that. If I thought decorating the house top to bottom would help, > I did that. If I thought baking cookies would help (a > former " forbidden " action in my regimented food house), I did that. > If I thought planning a five course meal for my husband and me for > Christmas eve would help, I did that. I didn't regiment my exercise. > I didn't create " holiday food rules " and go to parties having filled > up on crudite (ha – like you can ever fill up on crudite). > > I simply looked into my heart and said " I don't feel great and I'm > not going to beat myself up for that, I am going to do the first > thing that comes to mind that might make me feel better and `Let it > Be' – let it be anything I want, let it be anything I think will > bring me comfort, let it be anything that I think will make me feel > happier, let it be anything that will help me get through. > > And what was strange about it was there was one OTHER really > important thing I didn't do. I didn't go haywire with my eating. > > You see, it used to be that by setting up my " food rules " of the > holidays – I always set myself up to fail. By not baking or cooking, > or only cooking " good " foods, I would put myself in " food sneaking " > mode. I would go home to my family and eat healthfully in front of > everyone, only to sneak into the family pantry at midnight and shovel > down as many chips as I could get into my mouth. Or, I'd fill a > sweatshirt pocket with cookies that weren't " my " cookies while no one > was watching to eat later. Or, I'd offer to clean up so I could sneak > extra handfuls of stuffing as I filled the leftover containers. And > I'd also watch others eat and resent the h*ll out of them! What a way > to spend my holidays, right? > > But I didn't do ANY of those things this year. > > Because I said " Let it Be. " > > And in the process, I ate like a normal person. I over-indulged one > day, and then under-indulged the next because my body BEGGED me to > not eat any more and I said " let it be " . I made cookies and didn't > feel the need to lick every bowl or sample every piece while they > were hot. I'm not a big sweets person, so I had a few. There are > still over 3 dozen in the freezer and I feel no desire for them. > They'll be broken out on occasions, parties, etc. throughout the > year – without fear! > > I cooked a NEW Christmas Eve Dinner and Christmas Day brunch, trying > new recipes to start new traditions with my husband (we're just 16 > months married – this was our first Christmas with just us). Some > recipes were healthful (like a TOO DIE FOR carrot soup that I will > make again and again), others were festive and not > particularly " light " but I was able to balance the meal with fresh > vegetables we both love. > > And I did all this because my mantra was " Let it Be " This was not > going to be the best holiday ever – no matter what, but I wasn't > going to try and make it something its not or try and overcome by > pushing myself to be " perfectly healthful. " > > And now, I feel okay. I feel like I WANT to pick up on my exercise > and eat a lot more fresh foods not because I have to, but because my > body wants that. > > And most importantly, I feel like I made it through the holidays > without doing anything worth beating myself up for and can approach > the New Year without having to feel like I " must get back to > perfection because I'm such a loser " . That's how I would have felt in > years past. > > I am going to work today on my New Year's Evolution plan, re-set on > my P90X (http://beachbodycoach.com/esuite/home/iofitwithang ) for 90 > days, and prep to paint my workout/BeachBody Business room. Because > today, I'm going to " let it be " as well, and this is where I want to > be! > > Take care all! > Ang > > (http://beachbodycoach.com/esuite/home/iofitwithang ) > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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