Guest guest Posted December 29, 2008 Report Share Posted December 29, 2008 I lean towards some mild depression – so when the shorter days and holidays come, it can really do a number on me. And life feels super- overwhelming this year for family and financial reasons. Used to be, when I felt this way, I'd set these clearly unreasonable holiday workout, business and food " management " goals and IF I achieved them, I felt resentful that I hadn't enjoyed my holidays and if I didn't achieve them, I'd feel guilty. So this holiday season, my theme was " Let it Be " Whenever I felt down in the dumps, I said to myself " Let it Be " . If I thought exercising would make me feel better, I did it. If I thought laying on the couch and watching old Christmas movies would help, I did that. If I thought decorating the house top to bottom would help, I did that. If I thought baking cookies would help (a former " forbidden " action in my regimented food house), I did that. If I thought planning a five course meal for my husband and me for Christmas eve would help, I did that. I didn't regiment my exercise. I didn't create " holiday food rules " and go to parties having filled up on crudite (ha – like you can ever fill up on crudite). I simply looked into my heart and said " I don't feel great and I'm not going to beat myself up for that, I am going to do the first thing that comes to mind that might make me feel better and `Let it Be' – let it be anything I want, let it be anything I think will bring me comfort, let it be anything that I think will make me feel happier, let it be anything that will help me get through. And what was strange about it was there was one OTHER really important thing I didn't do. I didn't go haywire with my eating. You see, it used to be that by setting up my " food rules " of the holidays – I always set myself up to fail. By not baking or cooking, or only cooking " good " foods, I would put myself in " food sneaking " mode. I would go home to my family and eat healthfully in front of everyone, only to sneak into the family pantry at midnight and shovel down as many chips as I could get into my mouth. Or, I'd fill a sweatshirt pocket with cookies that weren't " my " cookies while no one was watching to eat later. Or, I'd offer to clean up so I could sneak extra handfuls of stuffing as I filled the leftover containers. And I'd also watch others eat and resent the h*ll out of them! What a way to spend my holidays, right? But I didn't do ANY of those things this year. Because I said " Let it Be. " And in the process, I ate like a normal person. I over-indulged one day, and then under-indulged the next because my body BEGGED me to not eat any more and I said " let it be " . I made cookies and didn't feel the need to lick every bowl or sample every piece while they were hot. I'm not a big sweets person, so I had a few. There are still over 3 dozen in the freezer and I feel no desire for them. They'll be broken out on occasions, parties, etc. throughout the year – without fear! I cooked a NEW Christmas Eve Dinner and Christmas Day brunch, trying new recipes to start new traditions with my husband (we're just 16 months married – this was our first Christmas with just us). Some recipes were healthful (like a TOO DIE FOR carrot soup that I will make again and again), others were festive and not particularly " light " but I was able to balance the meal with fresh vegetables we both love. And I did all this because my mantra was " Let it Be " This was not going to be the best holiday ever – no matter what, but I wasn't going to try and make it something its not or try and overcome by pushing myself to be " perfectly healthful. " And now, I feel okay. I feel like I WANT to pick up on my exercise and eat a lot more fresh foods not because I have to, but because my body wants that. And most importantly, I feel like I made it through the holidays without doing anything worth beating myself up for and can approach the New Year without having to feel like I " must get back to perfection because I'm such a loser " . That's how I would have felt in years past. I am going to work today on my New Year's Evolution plan, re-set on my P90X (http://beachbodycoach.com/esuite/home/iofitwithang ) for 90 days, and prep to paint my workout/BeachBody Business room. Because today, I'm going to " let it be " as well, and this is where I want to be! Take care all! Ang (http://beachbodycoach.com/esuite/home/iofitwithang ) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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