Re: Big Belief Shift

[Guest guest]

This is so inspirational! Thank you very much for sharing. Here's

to all of us evolving and improving! I have shared this with a

friend of mine who is on a similar journey, and I know that your

realizations are in her future as well. Thank you again!

Amy

>

> Got to share my breakthrough with you all. I've been on here since

> conception of this group, although quietly reading for the past

couple

> of months. On Tuesday, I was meeting my cousin for a long walk,

lunch

> and shopping date in a city 90 minutes from my home. So I plugged

in my

> iPod, and backed up to episode 13, I think. Around there. Anyway,

I

> listened to episodes all the way there, and all the way home again.

> Since my husband is in China for a couple of weeks, I plugged it

into my

> speakers when I lay down for sleep that night, and listened to

another

> episode. Well, friends, I think my subconscious drank it all in.

> Yesterday morning as I was preparing my breakfast, I had an

epiphany.

> After breakfast, I wrote this in my fatsecret.com journal:

>

> I can feel my mind switching over. I'm beginning to feel deep down

that

> I am being so very good and kind and loving to myself. I am a slow

> loser, but it's not even bothering me this time. I am feeding my

body

> wholesome food and lots of water, and giving it regular exercise. I

am

> getting plenty of rest, too. And I'm beginning to feel my spirit, as

> well as my body, respond to the care I am taking with it. You know,

I

> think I have treated everyone else, including my doggie, better

than I

> have been treating myself. This morning it took me 15 minutes or so

to

> do all the chopping of fresh veggies to make my omelet. Each fresh

> ingredient was prepared with care, and as I was sauteeing them in

the

> skillet, then adding the eggs, I felt LOVED. BY ME!! I am evolving,

and

> I know my body is responding to that affection and positive

attention. I

> am no longer going to call myself fat or lazy or old or ugly. I

truly,

> in my spirit, feel my true and beautiful self emerging, like the new

> grass or buds on the trees. God has all along seen my true self,

but I

> had buried her under self-condemnation and harsh judgement. Those

days

> are over. This is not about losing pounds now. It's not about

fitting

> into a smaller size. It's about treating myself with the care and

> attention that I deserve. It's honoring the gift of God's

> creation--ME!!!

>

> That feeling stayed with me all day long. Through exercise,

reading,

> food preparation, housework, etc. This morning, I pondered it again

> while making breakfast--sort of checking in with myself. When I

went to

> fatsecret, I posted this:

>

> I still feel that same self-love that I encountered yesterday

morning,

> and I believe I've actually made a breakthrough in becoming friends

with

> my body. I wish I could convey in words how differently I feel now,

but

> I know I've made a mental/spiritual connection that was broken

before. I

> really feel good about me, right here, right now. I'm not thinking

the

> old thoughts that broke my spirit, like " People are probably gagging

> when they see me, I'm so disgusting. " " I'm sure those girls are

saying,

> 'Oh, God, I hope we don't let ourselves go like THAT when we're

older!' "

> Those kind of negative messages that have damaged my own spirit and

> confidence. I am LOVED--by God, by my husband, my family and

friends,

> and finally by my own self. I am not a screw-up, I am not lazy. I am

> loved, and good and worthwhile. I am pretty, too. Just as I am,

here and

> now. And I am good enough to pay attention to, good enough to treat

with

> respect and kindness. Good enough to feed wholesome well prepared

food,

> and good enough to take the time to exercise and attend to. I am

worth

> every bit of it, and worth the serenity of a well lived life.

>

> This time last year, I weighed 232 pounds. I had lost 29 pounds on

yet

> another diet, then stopped working at it. When I finally got the

desire

> to weigh after listening for a couple of months, the scale read 218

> pounds. I am 206 pounds today. But regardless, I am at peace with

> myself, and feeling so ONE with my own spirit, mind, emotions and

> body...that inner alignment that speaks of. So I encourage

you,

> if you have entered this process half-heartedly, go back. Listen

again.

> Listen in a relaxed state of mind, just being open. Let

speak to

> your spirit. It will change you!!

>

> Love to you all,

> Michele

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thank you, Amy. I thought I would check in after just finishing my 4

mile super-challenge exercise DVD. It was easier than before! It is

raining outside, and I don't feel blue. I feel serene.

Oh, and I must tell you that I never ever shared my true weight with

anyone before. I avoided the scale most times because I felt that it

defeated me any time it didn't go down. I'm not afraid of the scale

(or the truth) anymore. Even if the number went up, it does not

define me anymore. I've lost 12 pounds in 6 weeks, but that isn't

what my journey is about. It's just icing on the cake!

As mentioned in one of her podcasts, I send my affection and

support to each one of you on this journey, and I feel your affection

and support coming back to me a hundredfold.

Love,

Michele

>

> This is so inspirational! Thank you very much for sharing. Here's

> to all of us evolving and improving! I have shared this with a

> friend of mine who is on a similar journey, and I know that your

> realizations are in her future as well. Thank you again!

> Amy

[Guest guest]

Michele,

Thank you for your inspiration. I feel that I am approaching a similar

breakthrough. I hope and pray today that I will continue toward it. I

appreciate your words, and I will use them to remind myself of who I am

and what I deserve.

Happy Weekend!

Heidi