understanding where I am coming from - families

[Guest guest]

Dear friends,

I've been doing more meditating on my reasons on how I've come to be where I

am now in my relationship with food and feel I've more understanding now.

My mother had a very difficult relationship with food and unwittingly passed

that on to me. I don't blame her anymore although I did blame her bitterly

for many things for some years. She was doing the best she could in the

society she was living in, with the information available to her .... and

she was a WW2 teenager with memories of going hungry and her pets being

eaten and a would be dancer before she had children ....

but, she would eat next to nothing for most of the day and boast about it

and say how good she was. At the same time I'd have my plate heaped with

food and I would be 'good' for eating it all and 'bad' if I left any. My

mother would move from about a size 16/18 (UK) to at her lowest a UK size 8.

And did that little girl grow up confused about her appetite? You bet she

did.

Doing some more investigations into my over eating I now suspect I eat to

get back at my mother. She and my father hated fatness and when I was very

big (UK 22/24) they would leave pamphlets around about healthy eating. I

felt that I was unlovable if I was too fat.

Now, some of my subconscious motivation is, I believe, a desire to prove

myself a good person whatever size I am. To say to my parents I have

different values to what you have. I can make my own choices about what I

eat. Crazy huh? And now I'm recognising this I hope I can move forward with

more ease.

Jenna UK

Start Weight 216

Current Weight 208

Goal 175

Heaviest ever 252

[Guest guest]

It's mind consuming when we grow up a certain way that we believe

that the way we are raised is the right way. But it isn't always the

case.

You are just as great as any other human on the planet. We all get

our down sides but how we handle them makes us either better or

worse. We shouldn't care if others don't like our looks. Once we get

the desired image of ourselves, it seems like a prize too hard to

gain but it isn't.

It's in us and we just need to unleash it.

Stay positive and be present!

- Jess

>

> Dear friends,

>

> I've been doing more meditating on my reasons on how I've come to

be where I

> am now in my relationship with food and feel I've more

understanding now.

>

> My mother had a very difficult relationship with food and

unwittingly passed

> that on to me. I don't blame her anymore although I did blame her

bitterly

> for many things for some years. She was doing the best she could in

the

> society she was living in, with the information available to

her .... and

> she was a WW2 teenager with memories of going hungry and her pets

being

> eaten and a would be dancer before she had children ....

>

> but, she would eat next to nothing for most of the day and boast

about it

> and say how good she was. At the same time I'd have my plate heaped

with

> food and I would be 'good' for eating it all and 'bad' if I left

any. My

> mother would move from about a size 16/18 (UK) to at her lowest a

UK size 8.

> And did that little girl grow up confused about her appetite? You

bet she

> did.

>

> Doing some more investigations into my over eating I now suspect I

eat to

> get back at my mother. She and my father hated fatness and when I

was very

> big (UK 22/24) they would leave pamphlets around about healthy

eating. I

> felt that I was unlovable if I was too fat.

>

> Now, some of my subconscious motivation is, I believe, a desire to

prove

> myself a good person whatever size I am. To say to my parents I have

> different values to what you have. I can make my own choices about

what I

> eat. Crazy huh? And now I'm recognising this I hope I can move

forward with

> more ease.

>

>

> Jenna UK

>

> Start Weight 216

> Current Weight 208

> Goal 175

>

> Heaviest ever 252

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Jenna,

I totally understand where you are coming from! My mother constantly

told me how fat I was and that I would be so pretty, if I was just

thin. She ment well, but it didn't work well. She also has her own

issues with food and was thrilled one summer when she lost a bunch of

weight because all she had was Smartfood popcorn, cheap blush wine

and grapes. Not exactly healthy eating or a healthy relationship

with food.

I wanted to let you know that it's great when you can be in a place

when you're taking the time to understand how your mother plays into

your relationship with your body and food instead of blaming her.

Congratulations and keep moving forward!

BS

> >

> > Dear friends,

> >

> > I've been doing more meditating on my reasons on how I've come to

> be where I

> > am now in my relationship with food and feel I've more

> understanding now.

> >

> > My mother had a very difficult relationship with food and

> unwittingly passed

> > that on to me. I don't blame her anymore although I did blame her

> bitterly

> > for many things for some years. She was doing the best she could

in

> the

> > society she was living in, with the information available to

> her .... and

> > she was a WW2 teenager with memories of going hungry and her pets

> being

> > eaten and a would be dancer before she had children ....

> >

> > but, she would eat next to nothing for most of the day and boast

> about it

> > and say how good she was. At the same time I'd have my plate

heaped

> with

> > food and I would be 'good' for eating it all and 'bad' if I left

> any. My

> > mother would move from about a size 16/18 (UK) to at her lowest a

> UK size 8.

> > And did that little girl grow up confused about her appetite? You

> bet she

> > did.

> >

> > Doing some more investigations into my over eating I now suspect

I

> eat to

> > get back at my mother. She and my father hated fatness and when I

> was very

> > big (UK 22/24) they would leave pamphlets around about healthy

> eating. I

> > felt that I was unlovable if I was too fat.

> >

> > Now, some of my subconscious motivation is, I believe, a desire

to

> prove

> > myself a good person whatever size I am. To say to my parents I

have

> > different values to what you have. I can make my own choices

about

> what I

> > eat. Crazy huh? And now I'm recognising this I hope I can move

> forward with

> > more ease.

> >

> >

> > Jenna UK

> >

> > Start Weight 216

> > Current Weight 208

> > Goal 175

> >

> > Heaviest ever 252

> >

> >

> >