Guest guest Posted December 19, 2008 Report Share Posted December 19, 2008 OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YA GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!\ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!\ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!\ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!\ !! LE > I recently discovered my intent. I mean the big one. The one that's > causing me to eat healthy food AND causing me to overeat. The one > that's motivation me to be on this journey AND sabotaging me from time > to time. > > This intent sounds really simple but I've never been able to put it > this way: My intent is TO FEEL GOOD. > > It's as simple as that. This is what all of me wants, but different > parts of me achieve it in different ways. The part of me that says no > to weight loss is the part that thinks I'll feel better the way I am > now. That it's going to be hard work to lose and maintain the weight, > that I might attract unwanted attention, that I won't ever be able to > eat a bag of chips without feeling extremely guilty. > Now that I know, though, I can deal with that. I can help this part of > me find better solutions, things that will make me feel even better > than eating the chocolate, the donut or the tiramisu or whatever it > is. Could be all of the above if I'm having a really bad day. > > Part of discovering this has led me to question whether the main > problem is really the weight and not just the lack of self-esteem. > Sure, this does go hand in hand. As of right now, though, I feel that > my main goal is no longer to lose weight. My main goal is to be > present in my body, to have the relationship with food of my dreams, > because *that* is what will make me feel truly good. Ten pounds less > but still craving things all the time and overeating and then > punishing myself for it is NOT what I want. I'd rather lose only two > more pounds but be really calm, relaxed and happy around food. > > But not only is helping me discover what I really want to get > out of this, she's also helped me discover some other things that > don't have anything to do with food. I don't want to write all of this > in here as it has really nothing to do with weight loss but if you're > interested in what I've recently discovered about my love life (or > lack thereof, rather) and why it might be that way, I've posted this > on my blog: http://novembersjourney.blogspot.com > > I appreciate any thoughts you have on this of course, both here and on > the blog. What areas of your life has helped change and how? > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 20, 2008 Report Share Posted December 20, 2008 Beautifully written!? How amazing for you to come to these realizations.? Deedee is changing my life! I recently discovered my intent. I mean the big one. The one that's causing me to eat healthy food AND causing me to overeat. The one that's motivation me to be on this journey AND sabotaging me from time to time. This intent sounds really simple but I've never been able to put it this way: My intent is TO FEEL GOOD. It's as simple as that. This is what all of me wants, but different parts of me achieve it in different ways. The part of me that says no to weight loss is the part that thinks I'll feel better the way I am now. That it's going to be hard work to lose and maintain the weight, that I might attract unwanted attention, that I won't ever be able to eat a bag of chips without feeling extremely guilty. Now that I know, though, I can deal with that. I can help this part of me find better solutions, things that will make me feel even better than eating the chocolate, the donut or the tiramisu or whatever it is. Could be all of the above if I'm having a really bad day. Part of discovering this has led me to question whether the main problem is really the weight and not just the lack of self-esteem. Sure, this does go hand in hand. As of right now, though, I feel that my main goal is no longer to lose weight. My main goal is to be present in my body, to have the relationship with food of my dreams, because *that* is what will make me feel truly good. Ten pounds less but still craving things all the time and overeating and then punishing myself for it is NOT what I want. I'd rather lose only two more pounds but be really calm, relaxed and happy around food. But not only is helping me discover what I really want to get out of this, she's also helped me discover some other things that don't have anything to do with food. I don't want to write all of this in here as it has really nothing to do with weight loss but if you're interested in what I've recently discovered about my love life (or lack thereof, rather) and why it might be that way, I've posted this on my blog: http://novembersjourney.blogspot.com I appreciate any thoughts you have on this of course, both here and on the blog. What areas of your life has helped change and how? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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