Hello - I am new to group support for weight loss

[Guest guest]

Hi! I got a classic ipod for Christmas and discovered 's

podcast. What a gift! I've considered myself heavy all my life,

tho I see pictures of myself as a teen and in my 20's and wonder

what I was thinking. Now at 53 years old and 210 pounds, I would

love to go back to my size 12's that I thought were for fat people

back then. I have been on every diet imaginable - my last

successful battle with weight was with fen-phen which caused serious

heart problems in some people and has been pulled from the market.

With peri-menopause (and self-medicating with chocolate) and

fibromyalgia medication that has a side effect of weight gain I have

been giving myself a free pass on the weight issue. Knowing that my

Dad died of a stroke and my Mom died from a heart attack and was a

diabetic did not seem to be enough to get me to stick with a diet

for more than a few days.

I did follow the Weight Watchers regimen some years ago, but did

not go to meetings. My Mom would come home with stories of being

chided by a leader and I am not interested in having someone else

make me feel bad - I did enough chiding myself. This seems a much

less threatening forum.

For me, the breakthrough was the podcast where I was to be my

new, slender self and ask myself 'Do I like it?' and the answer was

'I have to work to keep this body every single day. I'm thinner but

I'm still old. Now that my face is thinner I look even older. You

gotta die of something - might as well be a heart attack.' All

these things I had in my subconscious all that time! I thanked that

part of myself that had given me permission to not care what I put

into my mouth for the last 6 years or so.

So now armed with my list of 'symptoms' of why I want to change,

I am listening to the podcasts over and over, savoring them. I am

moving through them faster than one a week but am taking the time to

fully grasp each before I move to the next one.

I got some soy protein bars/shakes, because I need to make a

tangible break with the way I used to eat. Though I know what I

should eat but seem to keep falling back into the 'I never met a

chocolate chip cookie I didn't like' way of thinking. I need

something drastic. This way I have no decisions to make about what

to eat - 2 or 3 of these protein bars, 5 servings of fruit/veggies,

and one lo cal meal per day.

It's only been 4 days - but that's one day longer than it has

been before.

Continous Improvement!