Need a mood boost (ot)

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Ok, sorry I am hogging everyones e-mail, but I just have to vent. My depression

has been hitting me very bad lately. I'm stuck because I realize I need to see a

therapist in addition to rexamining my medications but I am about to go through

an insurance change over and then I will be moving in early November. Why start

out with someone you won't be with very long??

For those of you who suffer from depression, I am at the nastiest point where

you are either very irritable or you just don't feel anything at all. When I do

feel its almost a sadness.

This is something I have dealt with all my life. I understand its not my fault

and I know I do not practice learned helplessness but for some reason I can't

pick myself out of this one. And of course being just married (which I'm sure a

therapist will tell me brought on this bout of depression) this bout has caused

an awful strain on my husband. Some times I'm super-bit## to him. Just really

mean. I am not a mean person but I am acting like it.

The next few months are going to be very hard. I just can't wait to get to

Virginia and see a therapist. I love talking to all of you but it will never

replace the long hours of conversation you have with a friend on her couch late

at night. Unless I can afford a plane ticket and you have a spare couch.... I

have no close freinds in age that I feel like I could have a few hours of vent

time with. I have a friend who suffers from depression also and I always listen

to her but when I try to talk and she responds back I really feel her interest

is insincere and she wants to get back to talking about herself (human nature).

ok. phew off my chest and in writing. Almost makes me feel better.