Re: Whole olives etc... > Cherie>Nic

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If I remember right, aren't you in charge of bikkie buying (like me

here)? Surely there must be some choccie ones that just don't do it

for you - buy those for the gang and you won't be tempted. If I had

mint slice in the cupboard now, I'd be round there like a shot, in

fact I'm just having to wipe the dribble off my keyboard thinking

about them. I really want to make some changes so that I get this

weight moving and for me once I get past the night eating, and I have

another fill to restrict me a bit more, I will look at incorporating

other things. I feel like I am putting my life on hold sometimes

whilst I keep this process slow and at bay. One of Ghyll's posts

this morning mentioned the dreaded word " sabotage " - big big fault of

mine and I go into auto pilot when things are looking good to try and

damage my good work. It's fear and I just have to get over it,

because I'm so tired of it controlling me. Ghyll's notes have

actually inspired me today and I'm feeling motivated. Last night I

behaved myself, brought ingreds to make cookies on the way home, but

didn't do it when I got in the door after aqua. Doing that class

made me feel good even though I had to knock myself over the head to

go. We are our own worst enemies and I seem to bathe in the glory of

treating myself badly. Time to wake up and smell the roses.

Today I'm getting compliments - am wearing clothes that fit me for a

change. Still probably a size 18, but I feel like a " 10 " today -

amazing what clothing can do for one's self esteem.

Anyway nearly time for pate and roast beef ....

Ciao

Cherie

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> Hiya Cherie

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> It is funny how we are scared into doing things, and then we slowly

work

> out how we can cheat or get around the situation. I am guilty of

that;

> however I do try to be at least a bit reasonable with things. I

> don't worry about swallowing whole, because like you I can pb for

> the team.

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> I would like to have that fear back tho, desperately. I would love

to

> have the fear so I can get back on track. I have a combination of

> factors (read pitiful excuses) that are in my way. I have to stop

> letting them rule me. One thing I have to do is leave work on

time. I

> always do that one last thing in a hope that it will make my next

day

> easier. It never works, and it means that I miss my session at the

gym.

> I don't know if it is me doing this subconsciously or if it is

> really a genuine attempt to make things better.

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> I have stopped with the biscuits tho, that is one thing. There are

some

> mint slice in the cupboard, they are calling my name but I am

filling up

> on chai and oatcakes with pate to keep the monster at bay. More

fill

> for me on the 28th.

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> Nx

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