Re: Re: HJ, am I maybe celiac after all? (was Rice and gluten)

[Guest guest]

well deb, up until last night, i would have said something like this:

hey, it's not so bad. grains, at *best*, do you no good. and c'mon. who

said you were born with the right to toast, anyway! just have a steak -

it's 10 times better! (and this from a recovered grain-aholic!)

but then yesterday i made some ribs and -- i don't know what came over me,

someone had left a bottle of a-1 sauce in our fridge and it's not even

organic! but somehow some of it ended up in the ribs. and i made a smoothie

with vanilla that i hadn't checked the gluten status on, cause i didn't

realize i had to check flippin' vanilla extract, and anyway, one of them

must have some cause last night poor amber's DH flared up. i felt *awful*

her skin got all red and i got all sad, and tomorrow we have to go to

boston (business trip) and i'm thinking, oh man, it's not safe! no where is

safe! it's not fair! my perfect baby!! damn our ancestors who couldn't be

bothered to eat properly and teach me to eat properly! why did this have to

happen to myyyyyyybaaaaaabeeeeeeeeeeeee!! wwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!

so, ya know. maybe if you average those two extremes, you'll feel alright?

-katja. i've got it under control now, thanks.

At 01:21 AM 4/6/2004, you wrote:

>Interesting, yes, but not what I want to hear!!!

>

>I guess I was fooling myself that because I get no obvious symptoms

>when I cheat that I " get away " with small amounts. But maybe I am

>getting harmful effects that I just can't feel.

>

>I suppose I dont want to face the possibility that I can't have any

>gluten ever.... I'm just being a sook really, aren't I?

>

>thanks, deb

[Guest guest]

>so, ya know. maybe if you average those two extremes, you'll feel alright?

>

>

>-katja. i've got it under control now, thanks.

I spent the first 6 months of my " GF " journey feeling

really sorry for myself. What is interesting is that

I also went into denial ... my test results basically

said I was sensitive to gluten AND casein, but I

totally " forgot " about the casein and ate cheese and

cream like mad, because I was feeling put out I couldn't

have beer and most processed stuff.

Now my reaction is so different ... someone offered me

a case of old bread, which would have made good chicken

food, but I took one look at it and couldn't bring myself to

even TOUCH it much less put it in my car ... like dealing with

a case of rat poison or high-powered brush killer, I just didn't

want it near me or my kids.

It's interesting how the brain rewires itself. Worms used to

make me nauseated, now I look at my worm bin and think " oh

look at you nice healthy compost makers! " -- and bread makes

me squirm.

-- Heidi Jean