Update from AK

[Guest guest]

Hello All,

I just wanted to update all of you on how I am doing. Plus wish all of you

the best during the holidays. All of you are always in my thoughts and

prayers. I know so many people have been ill and dealing with a lot. My

heart goes out to all of you.

I haven't been active in the group because I have been ill myself. I have

been in a flare complete with rash and fevers. My stomache is always

bothering me, my body aches all over, I have no energy and severe insomnia.

It has been quite a struggle just for me to get out of bed these days.

I have to some how be able to get better soon so I can go back to work in

January. I hope you will keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I need to

some how get my life back on track. I have been having a difficult time

accepting my disease these days.

I have been a lot sicker. The first 10 years with this disease was

horrible. So I can't understand why I am having such a hard time dealing

with being ill now. My health has been declining since March. I am afraid

that I am not going to feel any better than I am now.

I don't want to have to live my life in pain every day or feel so weak that

everything I do becomes such a struggle. It is all so over whelming. I am

hoping that by some miracle that I start physically feeling better or that I

will learn to better cope with my situation. I know I should be grateful

because I could be worse. I know so many of you are a lot sicker than me.

I am praying that you will all get better soon.

I admire all of you for your strength, courage and will power. ly I

don't know how all of you do it. You all should be commended for living and

coping with this terrible disease day in and day out. I have never met so

many strong, caring and wonderful people until I found this group. I wish

you all the best. You all are in my thoughts and prayers.

All My Love,

jatw@...