Re: Sorry I haven't posted anything recently...

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Hi ,

I've been wondering where you were. Hope everything is alright.

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Hi ...

I've been working on myself so much these past few weeks that I

forgot the obvious in front of me. Thanks for your concern (as well

as everyone else in the group). My focus has been on loving myself

so much that sometimes I wonder if I will end up shutting myself off

from a future relationship with someone. That's yet to be

determined, but I know I am still not ready for another

relationship. I will feel like I'll keep saying the same thing and

before I know it, 20 years will have gone on by LOL Oh well. I can

think of far, far worse. I am very grateful for the life I do live

and am appreciative that I don't live in a group home. I am grateful

for the beauty that surrounds me in this world.

Seems like people keep telling me I'd make a great parent. Maybe

that will mean I'll volunteer time around kids since I am not a

parent in my own right. On the other hand, I've been go go go go go

and just realize I need to stop going so much.

Thanks for your concern,

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Every so often, I wonder if I really belong in this group as well.

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Glad to see you on the list...

I've been out of touch for awhile too.

Going to our state Vocational Rehab office next Friday for dx info on

myself...I have been battling anxiety/depression and the daily stresses

of life with my dx husband.

Lately, he and I have talked about whether AS is all he's dealing with--

his functioning level is so limited, and I wonder if he might have been

more classically autistic but fortunate to " come out " and sort of be

with the world outside himself.

I don't know-- the more I learn, the less I know.

Big deal for me-- looking at my history, intellectual and musically

gifted proclivities, social awareness (or lack thereof), anxiety,

isolation, learning problems, meltdowns,etc. ... I have had to come to

grips with the possibility that I really am on the spectrum.

Scary...if I am AS, and I know the areas I don't function well in, then

who the heck is really in charge of my family?

It's like an emotional earthquake for me right now...meanwhile I am

trying to survive 22 credit hours at school and find a new job.

Thanks for listening group,

Sharon NT (?) wife and mom of AS family

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Thanks Janet.. I did.

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> we all belong, , the more viewpoints the better, I say. Leave

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Great point Janet--

Sometimes I want to address or deal with my lack of functional

qualities, or deal with my frustrations of living with my dx husband.

Often though, I don't want to log in and check the group posts, because

it reminds me of how inadequate I'm feeling.

Is that a pity party? If it is, I'm just hurting myself when I isolate,

right?

Sharon - the harder I try the behinder I get

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Go to meetup.com a great way to meet new people with your hobbies

and such thing.. I went to a cooking group today and sounds like it

will be a good fit for me. My social life is opening up a lot

recently.

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husband.

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isolate,

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I left early. Have a few cooking groups within the next few weeks

I'll be going to, plus meeting new potential friends as well.

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Thanks for the input of your experience! I do sound ASpie don't I?

Much more that I didn't share, like -- being a pianist/prodigy as a

child, hyperlexia (isn't that reading at a very high level for your age

group, and/or reading constantly?), profoundly naive to the point of

becoming an easy target for sexual abuse, beaten up in elementary school

for using " big " words, intellectualized speech patterns, reading medical

literature at 9 years old and understanding it, blah,blah,blah... :-)

Anyway, I agree about the testing you did instead of just anecdotal/

history based psych eval...

This is one of the questions I want to ask, along with the operational

dynamic of the doc's familiarity with the idionsyncracies of dxing women

AS.

So, can you tell that I'm a bit more comfortable using my 'higher-order

lexicon' now that I'm coming out of the closet, per se?

" Hi everyone...this is Sharon... I am kind of weird, with brilliant and

useful abilities in the midst of a world that has had no niche for me to

reside in. I'm a late bloomer at 50, who is just now going to college

and looking for my true and productive vocation. "

Do I belong here? I think so!

Sharon- enjoying being green today-- Happy St. 's Day --spring

has sprung in Alabama and I'm proud to be Irish!

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> Sometimes I want to address or deal with my lack of functional

> qualities, or deal with my frustrations of living with my dx husband.

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> Often though, I don't want to log in and check the group posts,

because

> it reminds me of how inadequate I'm feeling.

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> Is that a pity party? If it is, I'm just hurting myself when I

isolate,

> right?

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> Sharon - the harder I try the behinder I get

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