Questions, Ego, Self Acceptance and Conditionality

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Buddha said:

When there is this, that is.

With the arising of this, that arises.

When this is not, neither is that.

With the cessation of this, that ceases.

In my meditation I have begun to see myself or who I think of as

myself as part of a larger whole that would not exist if The Observer

Self did not exist. If it were not there I wouldn't be and sure

wouldn't be able to explain myself to you all. I think that my ego is

not necessarily good or bad and I think certainly not evil. It just

wants to run the show and tell me this story. Sometimes it's a scary

one sometimes a good one and often times it's the same one over and

over again. What I used to think is that everything it says concerns

me, is about me, is for my benefit or will always be true about me.

Lately as I hear this story in my mind or hear somebody else tell

their story or tell my story to someone else, I use it as a reminder

to be mindful. Not that I do this as often as I would like to and at

times it is really, really hard to remember I have an Ego and I am

not my Ego. Yet if my ego ceases to be then so would I. The problem

comes when I don't have compassion for these parts and processes that

become the person who is me. I guess these words of Buddha explain

some of my questions. I might be wrong about this so just take it for

what you will. At least I didn't ask anymore questions this time.