emotional rollercoaster

[Guest guest]

Thank you all who wrote about their very personal experiences with 'the

emotional rollercoaster' when on Guaif or with FM.

I believe, also, that the emotion probably comes from the FM. I will be

talking to my daughter, for instance, and tears will just well up, like

right now. I think it is because I am no longer the person I was. And I

really hate, anyone, especially my kids, seeing me like this. Especially, I

think, because FM does not have the status of other conditions, I am sure

that a lot of people think it is just a mild condition that should not

interfere with your life as much as it does.

I have a very difficult time making decisions when I am in a flare! Maybe it

is doubting as Alice(?)said. But here I am 62, raised 5 kids, mostly as a

single parent. Never doubted my ability to do anything under the sun. Now I

can't decide which cupboard I should keep the dishes in.

I have felt completely disorganized. I needed to know ahead of time so I

could prepare for the most small ridiculous things. If I didn't then I had

severe panic attacks. Since I felt this to be ridiculous and something I

should overcome I couldn't even express it. Hey, this is a first!!! I now

feel this is a problem with the body chemistry.

I think we feel we have to tough it out because there is no legitimacy to

this condition. I am sure that is why the doc treated me the way he did. He

was retired, so an older man, yep older than me! and he made a point of

telling me that he was older than he looked! When I think about what

happened I am sure he was threatened by me having the audacity to enter his

office and ask for him to evaluate a treatment. He probably still thinks

that FM is 'all in the head " !

So, chin up, this list is so great... everyone on this list is so caring and

thoughtful, it is wonderful. Everyone of my posts has received more than one

answer and I am grateful. It has made me feel loved for sure.

Hugs Lou

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