Annoyed at myself -self sabotaged?

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Hi all,

I had a great day yesterday. My wife went out for the day and I stayed

home and took care of my young son all alone. We had a great time and

played and I felt no anxiety.

Today however, I am struggling hard. It is fathers day and I had to

step back into the house from the bbq my wife and son are enjoying in

the backyard. My usual panic sensations are jumping up and down and

sabotaging my time with my family. I hate this feeling and feel

miserable that when I think I am getting over this it comes back and

hits me hard. Even a couple of beers hasnt helped (which usually does

and which I also know is a bad way to deal with anxiety.

I have also resumed reading the Happiness Trap where I left off and

finished answer the questions on values.

I hope to calm myself soon so I can go back to enjoying the day with

my family. It must be so hard on them too.

Sorry for the rant / venting I just needed to get this off my chest

and I don't want to burden my family with it or upset my son.

G.