defusing thoughts of rumors

[Guest guest]

I've only had one anxiety attack this year. But I'm still afraid to

socialize. I'm having a problem with rumors about me. Family members

and my ex therapist said that I was probably being paranoid. But a

while back a coworkers asked me if the rumor was true. Then my ex girl

friend of three and a half years asked me if they were true. Now I

think people are talking about me where ever I go. I'm scared to go

anywhere where people know me.

I can defuse the feelings that come up, but when I look at people I

think there thinking about the rumor. i then find myself defusing what

I think others are thinking.

At times I feel these rumors/thoughts are blocking the way to my

values in the areas of social relations and intimate relationships. I

also defuse these thoughts as well.

The ultimate problem is, when I think of certain values, these rumors

eventually come to mind. And I don't know if I should be defusing the

thoughts or the feelings the invoke.