Challenges with defusion - there's so MUCH going on!

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Hmm. I'm finding defusion tricky. I often find myself entangled in

multiple dimensions simultaneously.

An example process might be something like this:

1)Find myself immersed in some future scenario (thought, visualisation)

2)Counter that with a " positive thinking " thought (thought - words)

3)Notice this pattern, and immediately judge it implicitly (bodily

feeling, distant words)

4)Negative feeling (bodily sensation)

5)Evaluation of mindfulness technique ( " I need to do XYZ to defuse

properly " or " THAT's not how to be fully willing! " )

This all seems to happen lightning-fast, almost simultaneously. It's

not so much that I'm avoiding it, more that it's overwhelming and I'm

BEING multiple things simultaneously, and I only have so much

processing power to apply to mindfulness skills.

When I meditate, the flow of thoughts/judgements/bodily sensations

stretches out and slows down. and I can pick apart the different

strands - it's more linear - it goes much more thought --> bodily

sensation --> thought -->...etc and I'm much more able to just " let

them come " .

Part of it is that I've read so much self-help type stuff that I have a

strong habit of taking whatever I've read and using it to COUNTER my

immediate experience. My mind likes to turn ACT into " doing the ACT

technique " . Hmmm.

Anyway... the process of writing that out has been useful. If anyone

has anything they'd like to throw in, that would be cool.