Re: I still have questions... from Carol

[Guest guest]

- I wanted to share the following with the rest of the group

along with you again:

I read your post with the guilt trip and " what-iffings " . As a

therapist, I can point out that you are going through the " Barganing "

stage of grief where we try to make sense and grow towards acceptance

of the unacceptable. However, it's difficult for our head to talk to

our heart, and almost impossible to be objective when we're

emotionally involved. It may help for you to write yourself a

response as if you were posting to another caregiver. (I've found

that journaling always helps since it takes care of the free-floating

anxieties and questions. Also a gratitude list - be grateful that

your mom left with her dignity and grace intact, and didn't have to go

through the long rollercoaster at the end! She, you and your family

were spared.) As far as your seizure question - it could be the

myoclonic (sp?) one that typically accompanies UTIs - this explanation

would make sense, esp with her elevated white blood cell count. Take

good care of yourself and recharge your batteries before you take on

another individual who needs care. When we're numb and still in

shock, it's easy to become a human doing instead of a human being

(especially when it feels like we could drown in a flood of feelings.)

Take good care of yourself, and know that there is no timetable for

grieving. Cyberhugs, Carol in South Florida

How common is seizures for those with LBD? I was so shocked by the

whole seizure episode of my mom's -- don't recall reading about that.

TIAs I've read about -- but this was no TIA -- definitely seizures.