Guest guest Posted October 21, 1998 Report Share Posted October 21, 1998 Dear , Hi, thanks for taking care of MacKenzie's picture, it would probably take me forever to figure that out. Toby was the first to get the mail tonight and he just smiled when he read the beer coment; personally I think it's a great idea, I walk around like I'm half toasted anyway(no sleep) so we might as well make it official. Why am I frustrated? I don't really know. I just feel really down lately. Things just seem to build, I'm all stressed about this possible fundo thing, MacKenzie has a cold, I'm mad at most of my family, I feel like I haven't done anything for the boys in ages, etc., etc. I know can't you just hear the violins over my shoulder; I hate to sit here and wallow in self pity, but damn this is hard to come out of. I think for the last 5 months I've been sitting here waiting for life to return to normal and for my " mildly " affected CHARGE baby to leave all this crap behind, deal with the deafness and go on, but it's not happening! I know this is strange thinking( a form of denial for me I think), MacKenzie just seems so " normal " it's frustrating to realize this stuff isn't going away. I guess now comes acceptance, maybe. It seems like it's time to accept my own shortcomings too. I worry every day that I don't have what it takes to do this FOREVER. I know that we're lucky to have as few problems as we do, but sometimes it truly feels like my life is over. I hope I haven't offended you or anyone else, going on as I have. I'm afraid some people would be angry if they knew I felt this way; although I suspect a good number of others have been in a similiar situation. Jeanie Colp, mom to MacKenzie 4 mths. CHARGE, Tyler 7, Zachary 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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