Re: EMDR session update for anyone interested -- Cindy & Kerrie

[Guest guest]

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I’m like Kerrie in that I haven’t done EMDR but am intrigued by it and may

do it. Thanks to everyone for their input. I’ve sensed, partly from

thinking about the great sharing in this group, that there’s a strong,

fairly untouched core (of my onion?) that may only be accessed by

something such as EMDR.

I’m come so far in my recovery, before and through this group, that I’m

not too afraid of what you and others described about touching strongly

disturbing emotions. Naturally, I have some concern about it. However,

Bradshaw says, “You’ve already lived your worst fears.” I will

remember that if I do EMDR.

One Non-BP Recovering Man

--- cre8within wrote:

> I went to my EMDR consult today and the doc took some history and I

> told her about a pretty intense trauma I suffered as a child (at

> least the parts I can remember) and just talking about it was

> somewhat stressful. I could feel some hypervigilent feelings but

> continued and was able to finish the story. Toward the end of the

> session I had a sense of hyper-awareness, if anyone understands

> that, where you are very aware of yourself and your movements.

> Usually you reach for a glass of water without thinking, but in that

> state I felt very aware and every movement seemed very deliberate.

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> I felt kinda surreal and up close (maybe someone knows what I mean

> by that)

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> I did ask the doc (who was severely sexually abused herself and

> apparently did not remember any of it until years later, but had the

> symptoms of abuse) whether it changed her sexually as an adult (like

> to where sex triggered the trauma) and she said that it did and was

> pretty bad for awhile.

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> This worries me because I don't want to open up memories that may

> ruin my sex life so I am beginning to wonder if it is worth it. I

> guess EMDR can help put the missing pieces of a puzzle together and

> that would be nice because I think with missing pieces we tend to

> blame ourselves for behavior/feelings that was caused by someone

> else.

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> For example, the doc said that she didn't know why she didn't want

> to be touched by her husband sometimes before she found out what

> happened to her and when she realized what happened she was able to

> work through it because she had a complete picture and she realized

> that there was a reason for her reactions.

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> So I am going back and forth. On the one hand I think it would

> empower me because it is hard to work with only half a picture, but

> on the other hand I am afraid that I will be triggered and

> constantly having flashbacks.

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> I decided to just try and relax knowing that the answer will come.

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> Thanks for listening to anyone reading.

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