Guest guest Posted March 25, 2006 Report Share Posted March 25, 2006 Hi , That's right, I forgot you had already scheduled your explant. Is the MRSA still active? Sis > > > > > > > > It's Friday night and I'm sure there's not too many reading > the > > > board right now, but I just have to spill my guts... > > > > > > > > My culture came back positive for Gram negative bacteria. > > > The " Gram " is just a type of stain method used to identify > > different > > > strains. The test results are preliminary so the actual > bacteria > > > has yet to be identified . I should know something Monday. > But > > the > > > fact that it's not MRSA is actually very worrisome. Gram > negative > > > is not good by any stretch of the imagination. > > > > Okay, I'm scared to death right now. I don't want to be the > > > patient in isolation in the hospital that all of the nurses > are > > > afraid to see. (I'll have you know that more often than not, > I'm > > the > > > nurse that willingly takes those patient's because I know they > > need > > > me). Anyway, I'm truly mortified because this has been going > on > > for > > > so long there's just no telling what this strain has > > turned/evolved > > > into. And then to make matters worse I'm in the middle of > this > > > domestic crisis. It's all just too much for me to. My future > is so > > > uncertain. The strong part of me is weakening with every > passing > > > minute, but I still have enough sense to know that I'll get > > through > > > this. It's the unknown that scares me so much. I sit here > with > > > tears silently rolling down my cheeks filled with angst. The > > tears > > > are not for the loss of my marriage, or not for my poor > health, > > not > > > for the fact that I'm so not in a position to take care of > myself > > > alone, and it's not because I'm so clueless about money and > where > > it > > > all goes. You see I've already cried tears for each of those > > things > > > independent of each other. I think it's all of those combined > > > together and the fact that I literally have no idea where I > will > > be > > > a month from now or three months from now. I've always been > such > > a > > > carefully planned and calculated person and right now I can't > plan > > > for anything. I have absolutely no control. > > > > The fact that I would even post all of this on the board is > so > > > unlike me. I'm a sking myself how I could be so selfish when > there > > > are others who are suffering more than I. And how on earth can > I > > be > > > strong for those who need me to share my strength, when I am > so > > > weak? > > > > My thoughts are spinning inside my head in that ever-so- > rapid > > > circular motion. You know, the one that has no beginning and > no > > end? > > > > Well, like the moment that I posted those pictures...I feel > like > > > my load has eased, if only for a moment. Somehow divulging the > > fact > > > that I too am vulnerable to fear brings a mild temporary > peace... > > > > Enough of the PCS (Poor Christene Syndrome). Tmorrow is a > new > > day > > > with a new beginning. See...even time travels in a circle... > > > > Whoever reads this, thank you for just reading it. > > > > > > > > Christene > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Opinions expressed are NOT meant to take the place of advice > given by licensed health care professionals. Consult your physician > or licensed health care professional before commencing any medical > treatment. > > > > " Do not let either the medical authorities or the politicians > mislead you. Find out what the facts are, and make your own > decisions about how to live a happy life and how to work for a > better world. " - Linus ing, two-time Nobel Prize Winner (1954, > Chemistry; 1963, Peace) > > > > See our photos website! Enter " implants " for access at this link: > > http://.shutterfly.com/action/ > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 25, 2006 Report Share Posted March 25, 2006 Thanks sis. It is so nice to have people who understand what I am going through. My family does to some extent, but unless you have been through it first hand... Don't get me wrong, I am getting these bag out..I have paid my deposit and am counting down the days! I am getting excited now...and looking forward to healing and feeling WELL again. I wish I could do it NOW...but unfortunately I have two eighteen month olds here at home, that weigh 30 pounds a piece! with a no lifting restriction for three weeks, I have to wait until the kids are home on summer break to help me out! I am afraid to tell Dr. Feng about the MRSA though. I am afraid she won't do the explant. eck. I will have to tell her, I know. ~ DeBolt~ Re: about my lab results , we are so often left between a rock and a hard place with these implants. The only thing I can say is that eventually, the implants will have to come out, because they aren't lifetime devices. If they are making you sick right now, they'll continue to make you sick. If the implants are the source of the problem, perhaps when they're gone, you'll be able to get well. If they are the source of the problem and remain in your body, they'll probably continue to make you ill. I feel so badly for all the suffering you've endured, and hope that you are able to find peace with whatever dicision you make.Sis> > >> > > It's Friday night and I'm sure there's not too many reading the > > board right now, but I just have to spill my guts...> > > > > > My culture came back positive for Gram negative bacteria. > > The "Gram" is just a type of stain method used to identify > different > > strains. The test results are preliminary so the actual bacteria > > has yet to be identified . I should know something Monday. But > the > > fact that it's not MRSA is actually very worrisome. Gram negative > > is not good by any stretch of the imagination. > > > Okay, I'm scared to death right now. I don't want to be the > > patient in isolation in the hospital that all of the nurses are > > afraid to see. (I'll have you know that more often than not, I'm > the > > nurse that willingly takes those patient's because I know they > need > > me). Anyway, I'm truly mortified because this has been going on > for > > so long there's just no telling what this strain has > turned/evolved > > into. And then to make matters worse I'm in the middle of this > > domestic crisis. It's all just too much for me to. My future is so > > uncertain. The strong part of me is weakening with every passing > > minute, but I still have enough sense to know that I'll get > through > > this. It's the unknown that scares me so much. I sit here with > > tears silently rolling down my cheeks filled with angst. The > tears > > are not for the loss of my marriage, or not for my poor health, > not > > for the fact that I'm so not in a position to take care of myself > > alone, and it's not because I'm so clueless about money and where > it > > all goes. You see I've already cried tears for each of those > things > > independent of each other. I think it's all of those combined > > together and the fact that I literally have no idea where I will > be > > a month from now or three months from now. I've always been such > a > > carefully planned and calculated person and right now I can't plan > > for anything. I have absolutely no control. > > > The fact that I would even post all of this on the board is so > > unlike me. I'm a sking myself how I could be so selfish when there > > are others who are suffering more than I. And how on earth can I > be > > strong for those who need me to share my strength, when I am so > > weak? > > > My thoughts are spinning inside my head in that ever-so-rapid > > circular motion. You know, the one that has no beginning and no > end? > > > Well, like the moment that I posted those pictures...I feel like > > my load has eased, if only for a moment. Somehow divulging the > fact > > that I too am vulnerable to fear brings a mild temporary peace... > > > Enough of the PCS (Poor Christene Syndrome). Tmorrow is a new > day > > with a new beginning. See...even time travels in a circle...> > > Whoever reads this, thank you for just reading it. > > > > > > Christene> > >> >> > > > > > > Opinions expressed are NOT meant to take the place of advice given by licensed health care professionals. Consult your physician or licensed health care professional before commencing any medical treatment. > > "Do not let either the medical authorities or the politicians mislead you. Find out what the facts are, and make your own decisions about how to live a happy life and how to work for a better world." - Linus ing, two-time Nobel Prize Winner (1954, Chemistry; 1963, Peace)> > See our photos website! Enter "implants" for access at this link:> http://.shutterfly.com/action/> > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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