One year ago

[Guest guest]

Today I was remembering exactly one year ago today (which I remember

because of my son's annual retreat), and how AWFUL I felt, and so

discouraged. It was the day I met with one of the elders of my

church to discuss a prayer for healing. I was a mess. At the time,

he asked me if there was anything I should tell them - I

thought " Hmm, I don't need to tell them I have breast implants - do

I? Doctors said they definitely are not making me sick. " and I

decided against it. Funny that I even thought of it. I didn't see

an instant miracle following the prayer, but now, when I look back

at exactly a year ago, I am amazed to see clearly how far God has

brought me. I feel soooo good compared to one year ago!

Next area that needs healing is my self image. I don't feel sexy AT

ALL (my poor husband). I remember around the time of explant I

prayed that I would be beautiful to my husband and that my kids

would think I was beautiful, and they all do - thankfully. However,

I didn't think to pray that I would think of myself as beautiful. I

think the same issues with self esteem that caused me to get

implants in the first place keep creeping in on me - little mishapen

breasts right now, along with some sagging 45 year old skin! I have

come a long way with these issues, but sometimes they come back.

Hey, thanks for " listening " !

Night,

Cherie