Re: What to do!

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--- Hi Amber...my name is Sunny and I just joined this site a month

or so ago. Wow, you sure went through alot. I have alot of

compassion for you. I was a 32A bra cup size when I was younger and

still after having 2 children. My ex-husband coerced me into having

implants 20 yrs. ago - I am not blaming him, as I was a low self-

esteemed sexual abuse survivor and succumbed to lots of influences

back then. I regreted the surgery soon after I had it, 'cause I am a

natural livng type of person and love the country, etc. Over the

years I've become very, very ill not knowing it was my implants

causing this. I am extremely toxic right now, and not much is

helping. I am seeing specialists as we speak and preparing for

surgery this year. That is my goal. I would love to trade places

with you right now. Please love your breasts just the way they are

and buy a gel bra to enhance your figure, if you feel that is what

you need to do. I am suffering SOO much right now and my family,

including my grandchildren, are having to watch this. We are organic

beings and have no business putting anything in our bodies, which I

consider " temples " . We are beautiful just the way you are and don't

let anybody tell you any different.

I am here for you for support anytime.

* Sorry if I sound a bit strong, but I am very passionate about women

being abused by the medical system.

Lots of Love & Hugs,

Sunny and sometimes Stormy, lately

In , " amberbowers21 " <amberbowers21@...>

wrote:

>

> I got implants about 5 years ago when I was 21. I went through a

> tramatic recovery having lots of pain and styain on the pain meds

> tonz- I was extremely stressed in life and ate terribly before the

> operaation so I'm not surprised it took me a long time to heal. I'd

> never been in the hospital before in my life though....Anyway, soon

> thereafter I had a major life crises including seperating from my

> fiancee and moving back home. We were apart for 2 months where I

went

> through extreme depression and lonliness and then we decided to get

> married. He moved out to where I was living and we planned a

wedding

> which stressed me tonz as well. Soon thereafter I began experiecing

> depression and chronic fatigue. I was sensitive to foods and having

> migraines almost daily. I was unhappy inside spiritually and

> emotionally and had major self esteem issues and wasn't enjoying my

> marriage at all. I started to think it was the implants that was

> causing it because I had been different since the surgery. So I

tried

> to cleanse my body by fasting but have obsessive tendencies and

lost

> tonz of weight and thought of myself as pretty much dying...Anyway,

I

> had the implants removed without replacement by Dr. Feng in Ohio. I

> didn't feel any better and got worse and worse for two years. Then,

I

> finally had a mental breakdown in December of 2003. I finally

> admitted I had a major problem and went to the doctor and was

> prescribed antidepressants. I immediately felt better and started

> doing inner work and spirituality work and finding myself more.

It's

> been 3 1/2 years since explant and I'm feeling like I'd really like

> to get implants again- feeling that the trauma was the cause that

> triggered something that was already there. Not to fix anything

> inside....just because after explant I don't even need a bra- there

> is NO tissue left and just big scars. I feel like a boy....it's way

> worse than before the operation...So I'm needing advice

please...Has

> anyone else been in my place? I feel bad in clothes still and its

> just an insecurity- I wish there was another option....anyway,

please

> someone help!

> Thanks,

> Amber

>

[Guest guest]

Sweetheart . . .

Please read through your letter again, and pretend it

came from someone else.

It should tell you very clearly what you need to do.

IMHO, You already know! . . .

When you make your decision, you will finally be at

peace with it.

Hugs and prayers,

Rogene

--- amberbowers21 <amberbowers21@...> wrote:

> I got implants about 5 years ago when I was 21. I

> went through a

> tramatic recovery having lots of pain and styain on

> the pain meds

> tonz- I was extremely stressed in life and ate

> terribly before the

> operaation so I'm not surprised it took me a long

> time to heal. I'd

> never been in the hospital before in my life

> though....Anyway, soon

> thereafter I had a major life crises including

> seperating from my

> fiancee and moving back home. We were apart for 2

> months where I went

> through extreme depression and lonliness and then we

> decided to get

> married. He moved out to where I was living and we

> planned a wedding

> which stressed me tonz as well. Soon thereafter I

> began experiecing

> depression and chronic fatigue. I was sensitive to

> foods and having

> migraines almost daily. I was unhappy inside

> spiritually and

> emotionally and had major self esteem issues and

> wasn't enjoying my

> marriage at all. I started to think it was the

> implants that was

> causing it because I had been different since the

> surgery. So I tried

> to cleanse my body by fasting but have obsessive

> tendencies and lost

> tonz of weight and thought of myself as pretty much

> dying...Anyway, I

> had the implants removed without replacement by Dr.

> Feng in Ohio. I

> didn't feel any better and got worse and worse for

> two years. Then, I

> finally had a mental breakdown in December of 2003.

> I finally

> admitted I had a major problem and went to the

> doctor and was

> prescribed antidepressants. I immediately felt

> better and started

> doing inner work and spirituality work and finding

> myself more. It's

> been 3 1/2 years since explant and I'm feeling like

> I'd really like

> to get implants again- feeling that the trauma was

> the cause that

> triggered something that was already there. Not to

> fix anything

> inside....just because after explant I don't even

> need a bra- there

> is NO tissue left and just big scars. I feel like a

> boy....it's way

> worse than before the operation...So I'm needing

> advice please...Has

> anyone else been in my place? I feel bad in clothes

> still and its

> just an insecurity- I wish there was another

> option....anyway, please

> someone help!

> Thanks,

> Amber

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Amber,

I would honestly not put implants in my body for a second time,

especially since that initial surgery caused such a chain reaction

with you. You didn't respond well to the surgery itself, and then

you started having the same kind of symptoms many of us have after

getting implants. You've done inner work and spirituality work, and

that's great, but I think you need to continue down that path and

find peace with the body that God gave you. I've got a small chest

and I never allow myself to feel like a boy - breasts do not a woman

make!! I don't know why I got implants in the first place, but it

was a huge mistake, and I only had mine for six months. You had

breasts and you still were not happy, so you are essentially doing

the same thing and expecting different results.

Sis

>

> I got implants about 5 years ago when I was 21. I went through a

> tramatic recovery having lots of pain and styain on the pain meds

> tonz- I was extremely stressed in life and ate terribly before the

> operaation so I'm not surprised it took me a long time to heal.

I'd

> never been in the hospital before in my life though....Anyway,

soon

> thereafter I had a major life crises including seperating from my

> fiancee and moving back home. We were apart for 2 months where I

went

> through extreme depression and lonliness and then we decided to

get

> married. He moved out to where I was living and we planned a

wedding

> which stressed me tonz as well. Soon thereafter I began

experiecing

> depression and chronic fatigue. I was sensitive to foods and

having

> migraines almost daily. I was unhappy inside spiritually and

> emotionally and had major self esteem issues and wasn't enjoying

my

> marriage at all. I started to think it was the implants that was

> causing it because I had been different since the surgery. So I

tried

> to cleanse my body by fasting but have obsessive tendencies and

lost

> tonz of weight and thought of myself as pretty much

dying...Anyway, I

> had the implants removed without replacement by Dr. Feng in Ohio.

I

> didn't feel any better and got worse and worse for two years.

Then, I

> finally had a mental breakdown in December of 2003. I finally

> admitted I had a major problem and went to the doctor and was

> prescribed antidepressants. I immediately felt better and started

> doing inner work and spirituality work and finding myself more.

It's

> been 3 1/2 years since explant and I'm feeling like I'd really

like

> to get implants again- feeling that the trauma was the cause that

> triggered something that was already there. Not to fix anything

> inside....just because after explant I don't even need a bra-

there

> is NO tissue left and just big scars. I feel like a boy....it's

way

> worse than before the operation...So I'm needing advice

please...Has

> anyone else been in my place? I feel bad in clothes still and its

> just an insecurity- I wish there was another option....anyway,

please

> someone help!

> Thanks,

> Amber

>

[Guest guest]

Amber, You have been through so much already, I am so sorry for all you have been thru. Are you ready to go through it all again? Are you financially prepared for more health issues and also another impending explant. You have been through it already so you know the pains of this whole ordeal. Are you really prepared to do it again, because you will have to explant again. Do you have children? If not, please put off getting them until you have had them. If you want to distroy your health again, that is one thing, but please don't do it to your children. I got my implants for low self esteem issues and I also felt like a "boy" due to my small chest size. Now, after losing so much to them, I wish I had just spent the money on fixing my inner self. Believe me, after getting those things out, my esteem issues came rushing back. Getting implants don't fix the problem, it just

covers them up. Now I have to deal with those same bad body image problems along with spiritual ones, physical ones, and financial ones. Please check into other options to make you feel more feminine, because this one is a very risky one. I do know how you feel, I morned losing my implants and was angry that I couldn't keep them. But my health was failing faster with each day I had them. I needed to except my fate as a flat woman and focus on healing. I know we are firmly opinionated against getting them, but you must have known that by coming on this site. Also, stick around here and be part of our family, there is alot to learn about health and healing. Things that have helped me greatly, both physically and spiritually. Prayerfully, Lamberbowers21 <amberbowers21@...> wrote: I got implants about 5 years ago when I was 21. I went through a tramatic recovery having lots of pain and styain on the pain meds tonz- I was extremely stressed in life and ate terribly before the operaation so I'm not surprised it took me a long time to heal. I'd never been in the hospital before in my life though....Anyway, soon thereafter I had a major life crises including seperating from my fiancee and moving back home. We were apart for 2 months where I went through extreme depression and lonliness and then we decided to get married. He moved out to where I was living and we planned a wedding which stressed me tonz as well. Soon thereafter I began experiecing depression and chronic fatigue. I was sensitive to foods and having migraines almost daily. I was unhappy inside spiritually and emotionally and had major self esteem issues and wasn't

enjoying my marriage at all. I started to think it was the implants that was causing it because I had been different since the surgery. So I tried to cleanse my body by fasting but have obsessive tendencies and lost tonz of weight and thought of myself as pretty much dying...Anyway, I had the implants removed without replacement by Dr. Feng in Ohio. I didn't feel any better and got worse and worse for two years. Then, I finally had a mental breakdown in December of 2003. I finally admitted I had a major problem and went to the doctor and was prescribed antidepressants. I immediately felt better and started doing inner work and spirituality work and finding myself more. It's been 3 1/2 years since explant and I'm feeling like I'd really like to get implants again- feeling that the trauma was the cause that triggered something that was already there. Not to fix anything inside....just because after explant I don't even

need a bra- there is NO tissue left and just big scars. I feel like a boy....it's way worse than before the operation...So I'm needing advice please...Has anyone else been in my place? I feel bad in clothes still and its just an insecurity- I wish there was another option....anyway, please someone help!Thanks,Amber

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You're right ha! It is the definition of insanity....sometimes it just sucks though. I really had found peace with it a lot until recently- I got divorced and am dating again and it makes me feel insecure...All the old insecurities are still there I guess... Anyway, thanks for responding and I probably won't ever do it again, but sometimes I just feel so frustrated. Thanks tonz! Amberauntsisnj <auntsisnj@...> wrote: Amber,I would honestly not put implants in my body for a second time, especially since that initial surgery caused such a chain reaction with you. You didn't respond well to the surgery itself, and then you started having the same kind of symptoms many of us have after getting implants. You've done inner work and spirituality work, and that's great,

but I think you need to continue down that path and find peace with the body that God gave you. I've got a small chest and I never allow myself to feel like a boy - breasts do not a woman make!! I don't know why I got implants in the first place, but it was a huge mistake, and I only had mine for six months. You had breasts and you still were not happy, so you are essentially doing the same thing and expecting different results.Sis>> I got implants about 5 years ago when I was 21. I went through a > tramatic recovery having lots of pain and styain on the pain meds > tonz- I was extremely stressed in life and ate terribly before the > operaation so I'm not surprised it took me a long time to heal. I'd > never been in the hospital before in my life though....Anyway, soon >

thereafter I had a major life crises including seperating from my > fiancee and moving back home. We were apart for 2 months where I went > through extreme depression and lonliness and then we decided to get > married. He moved out to where I was living and we planned a wedding > which stressed me tonz as well. Soon thereafter I began experiecing > depression and chronic fatigue. I was sensitive to foods and having > migraines almost daily. I was unhappy inside spiritually and > emotionally and had major self esteem issues and wasn't enjoying my > marriage at all. I started to think it was the implants that was > causing it because I had been different since the surgery. So I tried > to cleanse my body by fasting but have obsessive tendencies and lost > tonz of weight and thought of myself as pretty much dying...Anyway, I > had the implants removed

without replacement by Dr. Feng in Ohio. I > didn't feel any better and got worse and worse for two years. Then, I > finally had a mental breakdown in December of 2003. I finally > admitted I had a major problem and went to the doctor and was > prescribed antidepressants. I immediately felt better and started > doing inner work and spirituality work and finding myself more. It's > been 3 1/2 years since explant and I'm feeling like I'd really like > to get implants again- feeling that the trauma was the cause that > triggered something that was already there. Not to fix anything > inside....just because after explant I don't even need a bra- there > is NO tissue left and just big scars. I feel like a boy....it's way > worse than before the operation...So I'm needing advice please...Has > anyone else been in my place? I feel bad in clothes still and its >

just an insecurity- I wish there was another option....anyway, please > someone help!> Thanks,> Amber>

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Amber,

You will be much better off without implants. I'm sure that you are a beautiful person inside and out. Even though your dating if a man is that obsessed about choosing you over wheither or not you have big breasts, he isn't worth giving the time of day to. I'm getting ready to have my implants out and due to being a breast cancer patient I will be completely flat. My husbands response is he doesn't care. He just wants to have a healthy wife again.

Blessings,

Penni

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You're right ha! It is the definition of insanity....sometimes it just sucks though. I really had found peace with it a lot until recently- I got divorced and am dating again and it makes me feel insecure...All the old insecurities are still there I guess... Anyway, thanks for responding and I probably won't ever do it again, but sometimes I just feel so frustrated.

Thanks tonz!

Amberauntsisnj <auntsisnj@...> wrote:

Amber,I would honestly not put implants in my body for a second time, especially since that initial surgery caused such a chain reaction with you. You didn't respond well to the surgery itself, and then you started having the same kind of symptoms many of us have after getting implants. You've done inner work and spirituality work, and that's great, but I think you need to continue down that path and find peace with the body that God gave you. I've got a small chest and I never allow myself to feel like a boy - breasts do not a woman make!! I don't know why I got implants in the first place, but it was a huge mistake, and I only had mine for six months. You had breasts and you still were not happy, so you are essentially doing the same thing and expecting different results.Sis>> I got implants about 5 years ago when I was 21. I went through a > tramatic recovery having lots of pain and styain on the pain meds > tonz- I was extremely stressed in life and ate terribly before the > operaation so I'm not surprised it took me a long time to heal. I'd > never been in the hospital before in my life though....Anyway, soon > thereafter I had a major life crises including seperating from my > fiancee and moving back home. We were apart for 2 months where I went > through extreme depression and lonliness and then we decided to get > married. He moved out to where I was living and we planned a wedding > which stressed me tonz as well. Soon thereafter I began experiecing > depression and chronic fatigue. I was sensitive to foods and having > migraines almost daily. I was unhappy inside spiritually and > emotionally and had major self esteem issues and wasn't enjoying my > marriage at all. I started to think it was the implants that was > causing it because I had been different since the surgery. So I tried > to cleanse my body by fasting but have obsessive tendencies and lost > tonz of weight and thought of myself as pretty much dying...Anyway, I > had the implants removed without replacement by Dr. Feng in Ohio. I > didn't feel any better and got worse and worse for two years. Then, I > finally had a mental breakdown in December of 2003. I finally > admitted I had a major problem and went to the doctor and was > prescribed antidepressants. I immediately felt better and started > doing inner work and spirituality work and finding myself more. It's > been 3 1/2 years since explant and I'm feeling like I'd really like > to get implants again- feeling that the trauma was the cause that > triggered something that was already there. Not to fix anything > inside....just because after explant I don't even need a bra- there > is NO tissue left and just big scars. I feel like a boy....it's way > worse than before the operation...So I'm needing advice please...Has > anyone else been in my place? I feel bad in clothes still and its > just an insecurity- I wish there was another option....anyway, please > someone help!> Thanks,> Amber>

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, Thank you...I guess I just needed to talk to someone about my frustrations. I know that it won't fix the problem- because it didn't before- I guess that I just feel like I'm a different person now, but really I still have issues about being flat. I know it would be nice just to wake up and I really do love my little breasts, but they don't look right at all anymore. They don't even have a breast shape and it's hard. I just wish there was something else I could do. But I probably will never get them again....I just wish I could in some ways. I guess I hoped that it wasn't the implants but just depression and was there- everyone I work with has them and has their health and it's just hard. I got divorced last year and feel insecure about dating again even though I'm a beautiful girl, I just feel bad about my breasts. It's silly I know but it's still hard. Anyway, thanks for responding - I just wish I had at least my old

breasts back and didn't have huge scars on them and no tissue just a caved in chest....Thanks for caring! Amber Lamse <wannabe_proverbs31@...> wrote: Amber, You have been through so much already, I am so sorry for all you have been thru. Are you ready to go through it all again? Are you financially prepared for more health issues and also another impending explant. You have been through it already so you know the pains of this whole ordeal. Are you really prepared to do it again, because you will have to explant again. Do you have children? If not, please put off getting them until you have had them. If you want to distroy your health again, that is one thing, but please don't do it to your children. I got my implants

for low self esteem issues and I also felt like a "boy" due to my small chest size. Now, after losing so much to them, I wish I had just spent the money on fixing my inner self. Believe me, after getting those things out, my esteem issues came rushing back. Getting implants don't fix the problem, it just covers them up. Now I have to deal with those same bad body image problems along with spiritual ones, physical ones, and financial ones. Please check into other options to make you feel more feminine, because this one is a very risky one. I do know how you feel, I morned losing my implants and was angry that I couldn't keep them. But my health was failing faster with each day I had them. I needed to except my fate as a flat woman and focus on healing. I know we are firmly opinionated against getting them, but you must have known that by coming on this site. Also, stick around here and be part of our family, there

is alot to learn about health and healing. Things that have helped me greatly, both physically and spiritually. Prayerfully, Lamberbowers21 <amberbowers21@...> wrote: I got implants about 5 years ago when I was 21. I went through a tramatic recovery having lots of pain and styain on the pain meds tonz- I was extremely stressed in life and ate terribly before the operaation so I'm not surprised it took me a long time to heal. I'd never been in the hospital before in my life though....Anyway, soon thereafter I had a major life crises including seperating from my fiancee and moving back home. We were apart for 2 months where I went through extreme depression and lonliness and then we decided to get married. He moved out to

where I was living and we planned a wedding which stressed me tonz as well. Soon thereafter I began experiecing depression and chronic fatigue. I was sensitive to foods and having migraines almost daily. I was unhappy inside spiritually and emotionally and had major self esteem issues and wasn't enjoying my marriage at all. I started to think it was the implants that was causing it because I had been different since the surgery. So I tried to cleanse my body by fasting but have obsessive tendencies and lost tonz of weight and thought of myself as pretty much dying...Anyway, I had the implants removed without replacement by Dr. Feng in Ohio. I didn't feel any better and got worse and worse for two years. Then, I finally had a mental breakdown in December of 2003. I finally admitted I had a major problem and went to the doctor and was prescribed antidepressants. I immediately felt better and started doing inner work and

spirituality work and finding myself more. It's been 3 1/2 years since explant and I'm feeling like I'd really like to get implants again- feeling that the trauma was the cause that triggered something that was already there. Not to fix anything inside....just because after explant I don't even need a bra- there is NO tissue left and just big scars. I feel like a boy....it's way worse than before the operation...So I'm needing advice please...Has anyone else been in my place? I feel bad in clothes still and its just an insecurity- I wish there was another option....anyway, please someone help!Thanks,Amber Talk is cheap. Use Messenger to make PC-to-Phone calls. Great rates starting at 1¢/min. Opinions expressed are NOT meant to take the place of advice given by licensed health care professionals. Consult your physician or licensed health care professional before commencing any medical treatment. "Do not let either the medical authorities or the politicians mislead you. Find out what the facts are, and make your own decisions about how to live a happy life and how to work for a better world." - Linus ing, two-time Nobel Prize Winner (1954, Chemistry; 1963, Peace)See our photos website! Enter "implants" for access at this link:http://.shutterfly.com/action/

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I know you're right. I know it won't fix anything and he really is an a- hole for even suggesting it....it makes me feel so bad. I really felt I had gotten to a place where I accepted the huge scars and deformed shaped breasts, but dating this guy I realized the issues were still there and it's not worth my health and sanity and finances to do it again. I just feel like I need to talk to someone I guess because I"m so frustrated.....He'll never know what I went through and what my ex husband went through to get them out and recover...I work with two girls that have them and have their health and sometimes I just want to convince myself it was all in my head and that it would solve me feeling so insecure about it but I hated them in anyway. They were WAY too big and unnatural- I wish I could have my old breasts back and start over- it pretty much ruined my marriage. So I'm just giong through a hard time and know I gcan get through it. Thank you for caring and resonding-

I really need a wake up call because I'm getting caught in the old thoughts of being less than again. Love, AmberPenni Pitre <penniquilts@...> wrote: Amber, You will be much better off without implants. I'm sure that you are a beautiful person inside and out. Even though your dating if a man is that obsessed about choosing you over wheither or not you have big breasts, he isn't worth giving the time of day to. I'm getting ready to have my implants out and due to being a breast cancer patient I will be completely flat. My husbands response is he doesn't care. He just wants to

have a healthy wife again. Blessings, Penni Re: Re: What to do! You're right ha! It is the definition of

insanity....sometimes it just sucks though. I really had found peace with it a lot until recently- I got divorced and am dating again and it makes me feel insecure...All the old insecurities are still there I guess... Anyway, thanks for responding and I probably won't ever do it again, but sometimes I just feel so frustrated. Thanks tonz! Amberauntsisnj <auntsisnj@...> wrote: Amber,I would honestly not put implants in my body for a second time, especially since that initial surgery caused such a chain reaction with you. You didn't respond well to the surgery itself, and then you started having the same kind of symptoms many of us have after getting implants. You've done inner work and spirituality work, and that's great, but I think you need to continue down that

path and find peace with the body that God gave you. I've got a small chest and I never allow myself to feel like a boy - breasts do not a woman make!! I don't know why I got implants in the first place, but it was a huge mistake, and I only had mine for six months. You had breasts and you still were not happy, so you are essentially doing the same thing and expecting different results.Sis>> I got implants about 5 years ago when I was 21. I went through a > tramatic recovery having lots of pain and styain on the pain meds > tonz- I was extremely stressed in life and ate terribly before the > operaation so I'm not surprised it took me a long time to heal. I'd > never been in the hospital before in my life though....Anyway, soon > thereafter I had a major life crises

including seperating from my > fiancee and moving back home. We were apart for 2 months where I went > through extreme depression and lonliness and then we decided to get > married. He moved out to where I was living and we planned a wedding > which stressed me tonz as well. Soon thereafter I began experiecing > depression and chronic fatigue. I was sensitive to foods and having > migraines almost daily. I was unhappy inside spiritually and > emotionally and had major self esteem issues and wasn't enjoying my > marriage at all. I started to think it was the implants that was > causing it because I had been different since the surgery. So I tried > to cleanse my body by fasting but have obsessive tendencies and lost > tonz of weight and thought of myself as pretty much dying...Anyway, I > had the implants removed without replacement by Dr. Feng in Ohio.

I > didn't feel any better and got worse and worse for two years. Then, I > finally had a mental breakdown in December of 2003. I finally > admitted I had a major problem and went to the doctor and was > prescribed antidepressants. I immediately felt better and started > doing inner work and spirituality work and finding myself more. It's > been 3 1/2 years since explant and I'm feeling like I'd really like > to get implants again- feeling that the trauma was the cause that > triggered something that was already there. Not to fix anything > inside....just because after explant I don't even need a bra- there > is NO tissue left and just big scars. I feel like a boy....it's way > worse than before the operation...So I'm needing advice please...Has > anyone else been in my place? I feel bad in clothes still and its > just an insecurity- I wish there was

another option....anyway, please > someone help!> Thanks,> Amber> Messenger with Voice. PC-to-Phone calls for ridiculously low rates.

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Hi Amber,

Keep in touch with us, we're here to listen and help!! Take good

care of yourself.

Sis

> >

> > I got implants about 5 years ago when I was 21. I went through a

> > tramatic recovery having lots of pain and styain on the pain

meds

> > tonz- I was extremely stressed in life and ate terribly before

the

> > operaation so I'm not surprised it took me a long time to heal.

> I'd

> > never been in the hospital before in my life though....Anyway,

> soon

> > thereafter I had a major life crises including seperating from

my

> > fiancee and moving back home. We were apart for 2 months where I

> went

> > through extreme depression and lonliness and then we decided to

> get

> > married. He moved out to where I was living and we planned a

> wedding

> > which stressed me tonz as well. Soon thereafter I began

> experiecing

> > depression and chronic fatigue. I was sensitive to foods and

> having

> > migraines almost daily. I was unhappy inside spiritually and

> > emotionally and had major self esteem issues and wasn't enjoying

> my

> > marriage at all. I started to think it was the implants that was

> > causing it because I had been different since the surgery. So I

> tried

> > to cleanse my body by fasting but have obsessive tendencies and

> lost

> > tonz of weight and thought of myself as pretty much

> dying...Anyway, I

> > had the implants removed without replacement by Dr. Feng in

Ohio.

> I

> > didn't feel any better and got worse and worse for two years.

> Then, I

> > finally had a mental breakdown in December of 2003. I finally

> > admitted I had a major problem and went to the doctor and was

> > prescribed antidepressants. I immediately felt better and

started

> > doing inner work and spirituality work and finding myself more.

> It's

> > been 3 1/2 years since explant and I'm feeling like I'd really

> like

> > to get implants again- feeling that the trauma was the cause

that

> > triggered something that was already there. Not to fix anything

> > inside....just because after explant I don't even need a bra-

> there

> > is NO tissue left and just big scars. I feel like a boy....it's

> way

> > worse than before the operation...So I'm needing advice

> please...Has

> > anyone else been in my place? I feel bad in clothes still and

its

> > just an insecurity- I wish there was another option....anyway,

> please

> > someone help!

> > Thanks,

> > Amber

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