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dear , YEs that was in Phoenix..

also talked a bit about identity..when we say I am blank

we start a story. Then find proof for that belief in our world.

I cant give you exact quotes.. something about standing here now is

enough for me. be here now notice where you are. World begins with I

... I identification . I dont need a self -left with no self. without a

story we are in peace and love or something like that.

I guess that is the experience you had.

Like the course in miracles says everything is in the past everything

is a projection of the past. When you question those thoughts the

world becomes kinder.

had said call pain love.. as my unity teacher flo used to say.

Someone mentioned having a fear of heights .. her heart would pound

and she would sweat etc.. katie says thats like love.. just name it

something different. I get excited with heights or something.

And that it is grace that all pain is in the past. its over.

I dont know if any of that is helpful to you. Im sure you know all of

that already.. I guess it is just good to be reminded.

I have never had the experience of dropping my identity..

so i only can quote other people

I was depressed when i went and depressed when i left..my identity -

still im glad i went . she said sadness is being at war with God and

I can see that to be true.. ITs also being at war with thoughts and

she said we will never have peace until we do away with being at war

with our own thoughts

KAtie says if you dont get anything from the work its because the I

know mind wants to be right. And looks for proof. If we believe what

we think we cant answer questions.. and i guess that is where i am at.

I'm really depressed about it but it is good to know

Maybe i am resistant to giving up my depressed identity.

I dont know how to let go of that story. If i do i guess im afraid

of being a stronger person.

love, roslyn

> > > > >

> > > > > Dear ,

> > > > > after this experience, can you also see that there is no

> such

> > > thing

> > > > > as kundalini?

> > > > >

> > > > > Love,

> > > > >

> > > > > >

> > > > > > I had an experience at about 5am last night that really

> > > > > demonstrated

> > > > > > the power of the work to me. I have been quite ill this

> past

> > > year

> > > > > > with kundalini (energy)problems that have been very

> > > debilitating.

> > > > > > Lot's of fear and physical weakness. I woke up at 5 am

> and

> > > > couldnt

> > > > > > go back to sleep. I tried to just be present with what I

> was

> > > > > > feeling. When I focus on my feelings, physical or

> emotional, I

> > > > have

> > > > > > often found that they leave me and I feel peace. This

> time, I

> > > felt

> > > > > > even more agitated and stressed instead. Then I had the

> > > > thought, " I

> > > > > > can't take this anymore! " Is it true? What is the reality?

> I

> > > can

> > > > > > take this, and have been taking it since last summer, and

> > > actually

> > > > > > for the past 20 years in some form or another. So the

> reality

> > > is

> > > > > > that I can take it, I just don't like it.

> > > > > > How do I react?

> > > > > > I am angry, frustrated, frightened, and feel out of

> control.

> > > > > > Who would I be if I couldnt thing this thought?]

> > > > > > Peaceful and with no concept of what I should or should

> not be

> > > > > > happening in my body.

> > > > > > turnaround: I can take this. I cannot take my thinking

> about

> > > what

> > > > > is

> > > > > > happening.

> > > > > > After I went through this, I noticed that my body felt the

> > > same. I

> > > > > > felt over stimulated with this bizarre energy going around

> my

> > > > body,

> > > > > > but I had no judgement about it. I just noticed it, and it

> > > didnt

> > > > > > bother me at all!! I literally did not have the ability to

> > > > > think, " I

> > > > > > can't stand this anymore " I just lay peacefully in bed,

> > > noticing

> > > > > how

> > > > > > peculiar my body felt, but not minding it one bit. I didnt

> > > care

> > > > if

> > > > > I

> > > > > > slept or not. My identification with fear at that moment

> had

> > > left

> > > > > > me. It was a very peculiar feeling. I did end up sleeping

> > > after

> > > > > all,

> > > > > > and felt rested all day.

> > > > > > God Bless Mother

> > > > > > Love

> > > > > >

> > > > > >

> > > > >

> > > >

> > >

> >

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