bad news about Jan. paycheck ETC LONG venting

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I won't be getting one! The 29 hrs I worked in Jan. is going to the

48hrs I went into negative time in December. All I got donated for

Jan. for the two days they had to donate shared leave was 4 hrs so

that leaves me 15 hrs in the hole that if anymore shared leave is

donated will take care of that. If not, I have to pay that back to

the department and if no more time donated while waiting for State

Medical Bd to approve me or not, will be no Feb. paycheck. People

are not giving up there time and they make it where if you aren't a

family member you can only donate vacation time and not sick and how

many people will do that???? I have no family members working for

the state.

If I could have got the correct answers a year and a half ago, I had

over 700 hrs and more by what I earn monthly but it took me going

down hill and losing all time to finally get some correct answers

about retirement disability b/c I couldn't do short term disability

with the state on 50% of my salary and pay bills. Retirement

disability is something different and was created due to a lawsuit

where the person won the case against the state to bypass short-

term/long-term disability and get disability from drawing their

retirement money before retirment time. I can retire in 4 1/2 yrs

anyhow but won't last that long in that toxic place and can't even

get there. They still give me the option to come in a work when I can

until approved but I just can't do that anymore. I was on the verge

of collapsing and feelings of blacking out and while driving. I stil

do not really know what that is unless TIA's or some type of

seizure.

I called to see if anything has been looked at and the guy said he

saw no activity but was going to check with processiing and call me

back. He never did so I called today and he never called me back

again. I can't get any option when calling the neuro psychological

doctor to talk to a real person to see if they sent the evaluation in

to the retirement system for the State Med. Bd to review. Next

Tuesday will be 3 weeks since my evaluation and they have not called

me to make an appt. either for results. All this waiting just makes

me more exhausted than I already am.

I did recall my mortgage remembering something about if you weren't

getting a paycheck you could apply for something so I called and they

said they will send a packet for me to apply. Can't do it online so

will cause it all to be delayed. My payment is due Feb. 7 but they

claim I have 15 days after that and by then maybe I would be

approved. It would help some to not have a house payment until

approved. I can't believe how long all this takes and the State Bd.

only looks at applications Tuesday's per week so that isn't much. I

just cannot go back into that toxic place and really can't even get

out of bed until noon or after due to fatigue etc.

I can say it is nice not to feel the pins/needles/shocking digging at

me and head itching and bad tremors ETC. daily tho I have had hits

here and there a few times but nothing like in the work place and I

haven't been out too many places either.

Someone mentioned to me about a hepa air purifier for my car. Anyone

use this in car? I haven't go to hepa vacuuming my car yet b/c it

turned Cold here finally.

I have been working on washing every dish ETC. I have in kitchen

cabinets and washing out cabinets with white vinegar. The kitchen is

one place I didn't get to all cabinets last January when detoxing my

house b/c I was exhausted after all I did. I can only do a little at

a time and it is time consuming and tiring.

I wonder if this will ever be over. Getting out of that toxic work

place will be a start but seems this really never ends b/c we get

hits out there b/c so many places are contaminated and I think I

react to chemicals also. I just hope I can get back to somewhat

normal as I did at one time then got slammed so bad it is not easy

trying to get back up. Girl at work said the musty thick air has been

pumping out bad since I've been gone. That crap should be

illegal!!

Oh, and they sent me certified mail crap I had to sign saying I had

12 weeks on medical leave without pay and after that I was

responsible for my health insurance and had to pay and also I had to

pay for my parking space while out to ensure I have it if I come back

to work and was very low chance I'd get one if I cancel so I paid.

And I was responsible for any other deductions I had on paycheck like

my life insurance thru the state so called them and nobody calls

back. Voicemail just sucks and I hate all those prompts and then you

never get to the one you need or have an option for a real person.

So what else can go wrong......my neighborhood has gangs causing

vandelism, I got the minor, before that had credit card fraud money

wired to the middle east linked to terrorism FBI says. So...watch

out using credit/debit cards online. At least with credit cards you

can dispute, debit cards your loss. No matter what computer

protection you have, they find ways to corrupt your computer. I was

told paypal and amazon were the worse two sites being hit but it has

hit so many now. I have to get my hard drive cleared and re-install

and with what, I have no money...I'm still looking for a Happy New

Year and hope I find it. Actually, I do not know how I haven't

totally lost my mind by now. Maybe I have.:{

Rhonda