Any advice for Back Surgery ?

December 3, 2008

Hi , I am new here . Just call me Wend : } I have many health

conditions , but, the main one that is so bad now is my lower back ,

L5 and L6 , herniated . I have to see a surgeon in the next month and

was hoping that I could get some good advice from any back suffers . I

am scared of the surgery , but am more scared that this pain that

wraps itself around my body and runs down my legs will cripple me if I

don't get something done soon. It sends me to the ground and my hip

makes a popping noise so loud that my Family Doctor has heard it .

When that happens I loose control over my right leg and have fallen

down a small flight of cement stairs , wondering after I landed how on

earth that could have happened . I am afraid that it will happen again

and the side effect from the fall , skinned up ankles and knees will

be even worse this next time.I get angry , and sad at myself. Not too

many family members left for support. What makes it worse is I have

been going through this divorce from hell , almost three years now .

He used me and my medical to eliminate our debt , now he says after 23

plus years that I am not really sick . So , I fight for the insurance

and all the years I took care of him . It has been rough and very

lonely .I have elevated WBC counts and Platelets and am chronically

anemic which is called Leukocytosis , plus terrible bone pain and a

constant state of allergic reaction with fevers and constant

infections to name a few of the problems. I see an oncologist for this

and have had 3 bone marrow biopsies only to find that they don't know

what is causing my body to produce these counts. I lost my 35 year

old Brother who was my best friend to Hodgkin s disease , my Mom last

year to bladder cancer and now my 19 year old Niece has the same

cancer that took my Brothers life and I pray for her to be in

remission soon. I feel like a big baby sometimes , with all I see

others going through . I can't seem to get why this is all happening ,

I ask God straight out , but still no answers .So , with that I will

end this long post and hope that you all have better feeling days

ahead , Wend~

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