; less interest, being bored, yet loving

[Guest guest]

First of all - !!!

, I´m going to miss you - miss you dearly !

I feel that there is a lack in my life.

I feel I´ve been accompanied by your loving and caring presence,

your charme and wit, your funny and insightful comments for

about ond whole year !!!

THANK YOU, MARIA, THANK YOU SO MUCH !!!

At the same time I can very well relate to your statement that you

feel bored by what is going on there now, that your interest has

decreased, but yet - you say you are loving this whole thing, the

list and the people.

Oh, well ...

This reminds me of an experience I had yesterday when I met a

friend of mine, a woman, let´s say, her name is E.

We used to have fun. I thought I would like to be in her company.

(And maybe that was true in the past (uuuuhhhh, THE PAST, this

word again???!!! :-))

Yesterday we had coffee together as so many times before. But

when I´d left her I felt bored. I thought that I wouldn´t want to see

E. as frequently as I used to.

I tried to go " inward " and listen honestly what I really wanted and

I found that I would prefer to " retire " from her for a while.

Not that something " bad " had happened ... I just seem to have

lost some interest.

Maybe similar to with this list ??? I guessed.

So what do you guys say? Is there a reason to do some " work " ,

to judge my friend???

I can´t tell.

It´s indifferent. I don´t really feel anger, confusion,

disappointment ... So there is nothing to " work " on, probably ...

But on the other hand I miss a loving feeling towards her (that I

seem to have had before) .

I would love to hear your comments!

Love,

Rosemarie