Re: Re: AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

[Guest guest]

thanks imogene! you are always sooo good to me. and yes, my grandmother can be

quite, quite, quite nasty and often says hurtful things to me. frankly, that

is the stuff that is much harder on me than the workload, the isolation, the

actual caregiving -- even the messy/gross parts of caregiving. her attitude

is the hardest part.

big love back to you, my sweet texas dear,

xo

anna

AHHHHHHHH!!! !!!!!!!!

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> Carol this is really for you (and everyone else who

likes to be in the Venter's Club ;-) !!)

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> I AM SO SO SICK OF BEING TOLD HOW MEAN AND HORRIBLE I AM JUST FOR

TRYING TO

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> HELP! Grandma is still barely eating (today she's had 1/4 of a

blueberry muffin, 2 bites of

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> meatloaf, 3 bites of mashed sweet potato) and she's more and more

mean and grumpy by

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> the minute. Her moron doctor just tells me to talk her into eating

more. AS IF I HADN'T

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> TRIED THAT! Obviously we've exhausted all other ideas or we

wouldn't be trying to get

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> MEDICAL advice! I'm surrounded by crazy people and idiots. I cook

tasty food, I clean the

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> house, I endure excruciating back pain when helping her up and

down, I am sweet as

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> honey with a smile on my face (and believe me thats work cuz my

normal demeanor is

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> more on the smart-assed and sarcastic side) no matter what she says

to me, and NOTHING

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> is ever good enough! I'm just so frustrated today! She hasn't

showered since Tuesday and

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> quite frankly she stinks and when I tried to get her to shower (or

at the very least put on

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> some clean clothes) I once again got told how pushy and obnoxious I

am and what an

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> awful person I am for pushing MY wishes on her. It really is a

good thing that I AM such a

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> good hearted person with GADS of self restraint because at the

moment I can clearly see

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> where elder abuse comes from. If my back wasn't hurting so badly

I'd be throwing things

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> and punching walls right now. MY doctor tells me I need to relax.

OH, REALLY? Gee, why

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> didn't I think of that? As it is I think one of those jumbo sized

bottles of red wine needs to

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> be in my future. I actually WISH that some of grandma's dementia

would rub off on me at

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> the moment. Maybe if I were a little bit less in touch with

reality I'd be better humored

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> about all of this...

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> And so once again I am feeling angry and hateful and you all are

taking the brunt of

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> it...THANK YOU!

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> Emma

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> PS Carol I know what you mean about the cyber gremlins eating your

emails. I make a

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> copy of mine every time before I hit send so that if they do I can

try again...it helps a little

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> to keep me from throwing the computer across the room. Cuz if I

did it might wake

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> Grandma up and I just can't deal with THAT again. ;-)

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