Re: I'm so angry

[Guest guest]

Most of us on Sickbuildings have had those same feelings and

reactions--especially the anger at how unfair this is. It is unbelievable that

the insurance companies and their fake experts are allowed to keep lying about

the dangers of toxic mold. As many have said on this board, we have to keep

fighting and we have to work together to get the word out. Make sure you do

post-remediation testing after the work is done on your house. Keep fighting!

Stay strong!

[] I'm so angry

Sick Buildings Information and SupportI'm sitting here in an extended stay hotel

suite...alone, with my family split up with the kids staying at the grandparents

and husband still staying at the house to handle the demo and repairs. Tonight I

find myself thinking about all the past month has brought and finding that more

than anything I am left feeling so angry at how ridiculously preventable this

all seems.

It's hard to believe that less than a month ago I introduced myself to this list

seeking information as I been experiencing years of devastating medical illness

and had just found mold in my home. I was brand new to all of it and boy what I

have learned in such a short amount of time!!

This overwhelming anger that I am feeling is probably one of the stages,

somewhat like AA, and maybe you have all been through it as well. But I am angry

because I NEVER knew...

I never knew that a killer is lurking among us...and it is being kept a closely

guarded secret.

I never knew that no matter how much I tried to renovate my house and keep it

sparkling clean - that I was being attacked every day by invisible poisons in

the air produced by things hiding deep in the attic and under the floorboards.

I never knew that in order to truly " clean " my house - I would have to look in

those dark crevices in the attic not at any time of the year, when it is dry,

but those times of year when it rains for several weeks straight and the

humidity climbs - creating the breeding ground necessary for the silent killer

to emerge once again to consume a little more of my health.

Or that I would have to climb underneath the house and physically remove the

insulation under the flooring before I would find what truly lurked beneath my

floors - seeping up through the cracks in the floor and the carpets - poisoning

the very air I breathed and that of which I gave to my children, family, pets,

friends and guests.

I never knew that as my health slowly declined in front of me - I couldn't rely

on the doctors I trusted to help my find the answers.

I never knew that as I put the pieces together and started to learn that my

house might be making me sick - and all signs pointed to possible mold - that

even when petri dishes grew mold and you sent them to the lab - that when a lab

responds that they found several kinds of mold growing that were all " within

acceptable levels " - THAT IT IS REALLY NOT ACCEPTABLE TO THOSE WHO HAVE HAD LONG

TERM MOLD EXPOSURE AND EXPOSURE TO MICOTOXINS. HOW CAN EXPOSURE TO ANY

MICOTOXINS BE OF " ACCEPTABLE LEVELS " ????

I never knew that buying a second test and getting the same response didn't mean

I should rely on it!!!!

I never knew that hiring a company to come into my home and test for

environmental toxins - that they would see black mold growing on a drop ceiling

tile and claim it was okay because it was dead and NEVER LOOK ABOVE THE CEILING

TILE in which case they would have found an entire attic almost 100% covered in

LIVE mold of Aspergillus and Penicillium and a few others as well.

I never knew that it would take 4 tests over the period of a year before someone

would finally tell us that we might have a " minor " problem. And that only by my

husband investigating that " minor " problem further - did we have a problem on

our hands that many who have now seen it in person have said it is among the

worse they have ever seen.

I never knew as I watched this strong willed, competent, intelligent woman who

had overcome some enormous obstacles in her life and didn't think anything could

stop her - become defeated both medically, physically and mentally - that her

opponent was microscopic and invisible but oh so much stronger than any fight

she could put up.

I never knew that it was all so preventable!

I went over and sat in front of my house today while I watched them doing some

of the demo work. As I sat there, I looked up and down the street at the houses

just like mine. Built at the same time. Built with the same ventilation in the

attic and the crawl space. That is apparently all that is wrong with my house -

the way it was built does not allow for adequate ventilation in the attic and

crawl space. And it is a moist area. Recipe for disaster. As I looked at those

houses - I wanted to run up and down the street knocking on doors asking the

people living there if they knew. Did they know to climb up into their attics

during the rainy times like this? Did they know to climb down into the crawl

space and pull down the insulation to inspect the underside of the flooring? Did

anybody know to do this?? Did they know that they could have a silent killer

lurking in their house as well, maybe already stealing little bits of their

health...or their

children's health.

Why isn't there an air quality machine that we can put into our home that

monitors the quality of the air we breath. Seems to me they have just about

every other digital gadget out there. Couldn't there be something that just

simply reads the various components in the air. Geez, they have computers now

that can play 1000 songs in an ipod - but what about something as important as

the air we breathe.

Sorry all...just the ramblings of a mold exposed maniac I guess.

Jeannene

[Guest guest]

Jeannene, sorry you are going through this, I know how you fell. I to

have wanted to scream at the world to wake up, and neighbors. finally

I told myself some will listen,some wont, just worry about family, or

even than just the ones that well listen as even some of them can be

know it all's and you can't make them see. awhile back I was standing

on my porch when I took in a breath and it brought me to my

knees.took me two months to recover from that hit. took me a little

bit to realize why. we had had a hail storm and many neibors were

redoing their roofs. yes stirring up the dry dust thay had that had

collected in their roofs/attics. yes the hail was golfball size and

put holes in their roofs. it broke windows and windshilds,ect. worst

I had ever seen. it came down hard and completely covered the ground,

clogged street drains.

so yes, I think everyone has some in the dust that has collected over

the years in their attics,ect. just waiting for a little moisture.

it's sad that we can't save the world. maybe someday we will see tv

ad's talking about the dangers of toxic molds in the home and all

those people we tried to worm will understand. all we can do is what

we can do. hope you get to felling better. jeanine

>

> Sick Buildings Information and SupportI'm sitting here in an

extended stay hotel suite...alone, with my family split up with the

kids staying at the grandparents and husband still staying at the

house to handle the demo and repairs. Tonight I find myself thinking

about all the past month has brought and finding that more than

anything I am left feeling so angry at how ridiculously preventable

this all seems.

>

> It's hard to believe that less than a month ago I introduced myself

to this list seeking information as I been experiencing years of

devastating medical illness and had just found mold in my home. I

was brand new to all of it and boy what I have learned in such a

short amount of time!!

>

> This overwhelming anger that I am feeling is probably one of the

stages, somewhat like AA, and maybe you have all been through it as

well. But I am angry because I NEVER knew...

>

> I never knew that a killer is lurking among us...and it is being

kept a closely guarded secret.

>

> I never knew that no matter how much I tried to renovate my house

and keep it sparkling clean - that I was being attacked every day by

invisible poisons in the air produced by things hiding deep in the

attic and under the floorboards.

>

> I never knew that in order to truly " clean " my house - I would have

to look in those dark crevices in the attic not at any time of the

year, when it is dry, but those times of year when it rains for

several weeks straight and the humidity climbs - creating the

breeding ground necessary for the silent killer to emerge once again

to consume a little more of my health.

> Or that I would have to climb underneath the house and physically

remove the insulation under the flooring before I would find what

truly lurked beneath my floors - seeping up through the cracks in the

floor and the carpets - poisoning the very air I breathed and that of

which I gave to my children, family, pets, friends and guests.

>

> I never knew that as my health slowly declined in front of me - I

couldn't rely on the doctors I trusted to help my find the answers.

>

> I never knew that as I put the pieces together and started to learn

that my house might be making me sick - and all signs pointed to

possible mold - that even when petri dishes grew mold and you sent

them to the lab - that when a lab responds that they found several

kinds of mold growing that were all " within acceptable levels " - THAT

IT IS REALLY NOT ACCEPTABLE TO THOSE WHO HAVE HAD LONG TERM MOLD

EXPOSURE AND EXPOSURE TO MICOTOXINS. HOW CAN EXPOSURE TO ANY

MICOTOXINS BE OF " ACCEPTABLE LEVELS " ????

>

> I never knew that buying a second test and getting the same

response didn't mean I should rely on it!!!!

>

> I never knew that hiring a company to come into my home and test

for environmental toxins - that they would see black mold growing on

a drop ceiling tile and claim it was okay because it was dead and

NEVER LOOK ABOVE THE CEILING TILE in which case they would have found

an entire attic almost 100% covered in LIVE mold of Aspergillus and

Penicillium and a few others as well.

>

> I never knew that it would take 4 tests over the period of a year

before someone would finally tell us that we might have a " minor "

problem. And that only by my husband investigating that " minor "

problem further - did we have a problem on our hands that many who

have now seen it in person have said it is among the worse they have

ever seen.

>

> I never knew as I watched this strong willed, competent,

intelligent woman who had overcome some enormous obstacles in her

life and didn't think anything could stop her - become defeated both

medically, physically and mentally - that her opponent was

microscopic and invisible but oh so much stronger than any fight she

could put up.

>

> I never knew that it was all so preventable!

>

> I went over and sat in front of my house today while I watched them

doing some of the demo work. As I sat there, I looked up and down

the street at the houses just like mine. Built at the same time.

Built with the same ventilation in the attic and the crawl space.

That is apparently all that is wrong with my house - the way it was

built does not allow for adequate ventilation in the attic and crawl

space. And it is a moist area. Recipe for disaster. As I looked at

those houses - I wanted to run up and down the street knocking on

doors asking the people living there if they knew. Did they know to

climb up into their attics during the rainy times like this? Did

they know to climb down into the crawl space and pull down the

insulation to inspect the underside of the flooring? Did anybody

know to do this?? Did they know that they could have a silent killer

lurking in their house as well, maybe already stealing little bits of

their health...or their children's health.

>

> Why isn't there an air quality machine that we can put into our

home that monitors the quality of the air we breath. Seems to me

they have just about every other digital gadget out there. Couldn't

there be something that just simply reads the various components in

the air. Geez, they have computers now that can play 1000 songs in

an ipod - but what about something as important as the air we

breathe.

>

> Sorry all...just the ramblings of a mold exposed maniac I guess.

>

> Jeannene

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