Overwhelmed and not finding work

January 3, 2008

Dear Friends,

I know this may sound " off topic, " but I am a former medical IT professional.

I was the database manager of a large hospital in Brooklyn, NY.

I've worked in the IT department of MetPath which morphed into Quest

Diagnostics.

I've worked as a software tester with Stellent, Inc. - a business intranet

development firm.

I am a " kitchen sink " kind of worker in that I repair, install, setup, program,

write documentation, and train in computer software and hardware.

Since I became ill from a toxic mold exposure in 2002, then the Stellent, Inc.

satellite office I worked in closed around that time as well, every member of my

immediate family (with the exception of my bipolar brother) died of Alzheimer's

or cancer.

THEN in 2006 my brother died by suicide. I have been utterly overwhelmed.

I have NEVER in my life had trouble finding work in either medical IT or music.

I have not been able to find a job in medical IT and the music work is very

scarce. Apparently, one is not supposed to have so many horrible things happen,

it seems, because it is absolute HELL trying to get back in to so called

" normal " work life.

Of course, the current state of the economy is not helping.

Does anyone know any medical IT job recruiters? Any leads would be appreciated.

I don't care about location because they may know someone in my area (Northern

Rhode Island).

I don't know if my energy level is not quite recovered enough (People tell me I

seem fine).

I don't know if I'm being discriminated against in some way.

(I come close to getting jobs - one as the IT support at Brown Univ. Medical

school in the Neurosciences dept.- but they are invariably, it seems, given to

someone else and I don't get ANY feedback.)

Age or sex discrimination - but I can't worry about that, really. What can I do

about my age or sex?

I am getting freaked out and paranoid about not being able to find the kind of

work that I do with no one to tell me how to proceed. I've been to employment

centers, career counselors and everything I can think of and still I am not

getting anywhere.

I still need work!!!

Thanks in advance for your help and the understanding that I know you have for

such situations.

Please reply to my personal email: stenjess@...

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