Update on Grandma

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Hi all,

Just thought I'd write and share how things are going in a little more detail.

Yesterday was

an emotionally exhausting day! First thing in the morning Grandma seemed the

same as

usual, relatively alert but not completely aware of who/what/where and not

making a lot

of sense when talking. Yesterday she was able to walk from the bedroom to the

living

room with her walker and a little assistance. By the time we cooked breakfast

she was

staring off with her mouth hanging open and was not responding hardly at all. I

had to

put her in the wheelchair and lift her into bed and position her myself. When

our massage

therapist came she opened her eyes a few times but it was like the lights where

on but no

one was home. This lasted from about 8am til about 2:30pm. At 2:30 she clearly

needed

her depends changed and I thought for sure I was going to have to just roll her

around in

the bed and do it. But as I was telling her what was going on she came out of

it a little. I

sat her up in bed and we worked together to get a new depends on. It was quite

a chore.

She could not stand up for more than 5 seconds even holding on to her walker.

That done

I put her in the wheelchair and took her out to the living room again and tried

to get her to

eat. 2 tiny bites and that was it. She was back in bed by 3:30pm and stayed

there all

night.

This morning she is crabby and semi alert but not making any sense when she

talks. The

words she says either aren't real words or they don't make sense the way she is

putting

them together. She is very restless. Sticking corners of her blanket in her

coffee, folding

and re-folding a magazine (yes, the whole thing), folding and re-folding her

blanket,

rubbing her knees. Even though she's slept so much the last 24 hours she looks

exhausted. She has a very fearful/sad look on her face but says nothing is

wrong.

So thats where we are. She's in and out, here but not here, and still not

eating.

Although I'm not doing a whole lot of physical work I am exhausted. Emotionally

drained.

Every time I couldn't hear her yesterday I was jumping up and running to the

bedroom to

make sure she was breathing. Even with a sleeping pill I slept like crap last

night. My

boyfriend is going through issues of his own and I found myself last night with

no energy

left for him. I feel bad but I just don't have room to baby him through his

stuff too.

I am tired and its still SO early.

Emma

PS thats so funny that you're headed for Belize!! Small world indeed! Get

it warmed

up for me ;-)