a little sad and alot overwhelmed

October 2, 2008

I drive a minimum of 2 hours and 40 minutes JUST to get my girls

to school everyday. It is awful to do this year round- full days.

The drive along with the stresssssssss is just about to finally

do me in. I live so far away from the nearest ABA autism shcool.

My husband and I decided to get Skye, My 5.5 y.o.daughter,

the help she rightfully deserves and

hopefully claim the mom she deserves.

I am just so scattered and stressed.

On the days I try to come home to do errands after dropping them

off at school, that means I drive 5 hours and 10 minutes a day,

just to provide the access to schooling. I have been doing this

since february. So, in the meantime, since I never have much

chance for anything but being the professional driver, I have

been pulling all-nighters doing aggresive research this past month,

about every other day, getting about 2-3 hours sleep then going for

the driving job. I am in so deep, I feel like I am dying. I have

absolutely no help from outside family and friends. Huband works

12 hour days 4 days a week, and he travels quite ofen. My alarm goes

off at 4:45 am every morning, just to be able to get out the door.

(sometimes just have had gone to bed by 2 or 3 am)

Anyhow, We are selling it all and taking her to the brain balance

center in Peachtree City,Georgia.(she is expected to be there for

3 to 6 months.)I had heard stories of autism

bankrupting family hearts minds and budgets. It feels like it is

here to me. I feel like the brain balance center,....is almost like

a last resort. I have really tried everything under the sun, it seems.

Just got to let it out. I have no one else to talk to. The stress is

thru the roof !!!! I still think this brain balance center will be

her recovery highlight !!

a little sad and alot overwhelmed, ~

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