We may go to the hospital to determine if some strokes have occurred.

[Guest guest]

Millie doesn't have a UTI but the change feels like one. the nurse

was here yesterday. I find she is more than I can deal with when she

only wants to yell at me.

I cannot expect a sitter to come in and take the same abuse.

Her son gives me no suppport to keep her in her own house, as he

would like his wife back.

If she has had strokes then we are dealing with a different set of

dynamics.

Her words are almost unintelligible and she is just mean as hell.

She then slips into pitiful.

the " kids " are running her ragged even when I send them home every

chance I get.

She sighs like she is dying and i am not sure how much more my body

can take.

We will call Hospice for some respite, as I need to regroup.

She says the house is dirty and things aren't where they belong, and

quite frankly, I can't pedal any faster right now.

There are no manatees to absorb my cares, and I am exhausted.

I should be in Belize with Emma.

Tomorrow is a day off, but I will not get one.

Millie is complaining of pain again which we had warded off with

Ultram for several weeks.

I think I need to get off the ride for a bit and feel like a real

person.

Wearing heels to the interview Friday threw my spine all out of line

and I ache all over.

If i am in pain, I have no patience for caregiving.

I wear sneakers to school with arch suppports so pain is usually not

an issue I have to deal with.

I am not sure I am crying " uncle " , but I am calling for the ride to

stop for a while.

If I know she has had some strokes, then I know we are no longer

dealing with just the Lewy Body symptoms, and then I can chart a new

course.

I don't remeber if i took my meds this morning because she was

yelling at me, so I am unprotected against constant insults and

badgering.

If someone else sent in this post, I would tell them to take care of

themselves.

It might be time to take care of myself for a little bit.

Ron, this weekend is a real pain in the ass for me,too, so you have

my sympathies from end to end.

Jim wants me to get on the waverunner and relax some, and I know it

will help my aching spine, but it all seems like too much effort.

I suppose my biorhythms have all dipped below the midline together.

I really have to buy some Calgon.

Millie is washing the dishes and sighing all the while. She insists

on washing sometimes, and I will have to go behind her and rewash the

whole lot.

I think I will have a beer and take a nap!

Down in the dumps and not taking any lumps,

carol

[Guest guest]

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Carol,

I hope you get some rest.My thoughts are with you and Millie.Im

still hoping that this will pass, please keep us updated and feel

free to vent whenever you need.Were far away but you are NEVER alone

in this.My heartfelt best Ron

In LBDcaregivers , " adhd5464 " wrote:

>

> Millie doesn't have a UTI but the change feels like one. the nurse

> was here yesterday. I find she is more than I can deal with when

she

> only wants to yell at me.

>

> I cannot expect a sitter to come in and take the same abuse.

>

> Her son gives me no suppport to keep her in her own house, as he

> would like his wife back.

>

> If she has had strokes then we are dealing with a different set of

> dynamics.

>

> Her words are almost unintelligible and she is just mean as hell.

>

> She then slips into pitiful.

>

> the " kids " are running her ragged even when I send them home every

> chance I get.

>

> She sighs like she is dying and i am not sure how much more my body

> can take.

>

> We will call Hospice for some respite, as I need to regroup.

>

> She says the house is dirty and things aren't where they belong,

and

> quite frankly, I can't pedal any faster right now.

>

> There are no manatees to absorb my cares, and I am exhausted.

>

> I should be in Belize with Emma.

>

> Tomorrow is a day off, but I will not get one.

>

> Millie is complaining of pain again which we had warded off with

> Ultram for several weeks.

>

> I think I need to get off the ride for a bit and feel like a real

> person.

>

> Wearing heels to the interview Friday threw my spine all out of

line

> and I ache all over.

>

> If i am in pain, I have no patience for caregiving.

>

> I wear sneakers to school with arch suppports so pain is usually

not

> an issue I have to deal with.

>

> I am not sure I am crying " uncle " , but I am calling for the ride to

> stop for a while.

>

> If I know she has had some strokes, then I know we are no longer

> dealing with just the Lewy Body symptoms, and then I can chart a

new

> course.

>

> I don't remeber if i took my meds this morning because she was

> yelling at me, so I am unprotected against constant insults and

> badgering.

>

> If someone else sent in this post, I would tell them to take care

of

> themselves.

>

> It might be time to take care of myself for a little bit.

>

> Ron, this weekend is a real pain in the ass for me,too, so you have

> my sympathies from end to end.

>

> Jim wants me to get on the waverunner and relax some, and I know it

> will help my aching spine, but it all seems like too much effort.

>

> I suppose my biorhythms have all dipped below the midline together.

>

> I really have to buy some Calgon.

>

> Millie is washing the dishes and sighing all the while. She

insists

> on washing sometimes, and I will have to go behind her and rewash

the

> whole lot.

>

> I think I will have a beer and take a nap!

>

> Down in the dumps and not taking any lumps,

> carol

>

[Guest guest]

carol

iam sorry i cant help but laugh at your descriptoins i know you are frustrated

but you are great at writinug about it. lol

please call hospice get some respite, also call the council of aging and

also elders affairs there are programs that can help you. we are here for you,

but you need to get some help, i know you dont want to put her in a facility,

but you have to YES YOU HAVE TO take care of yourself, i ignored everyone when

they told me i was ignoring my helath issues, sandie, carol c, jan, donna and

tons of others who kept telling me i was overriding myself and stubborn ole me

ignored everyone and wound up in the hospitla with a double kidney infection, in

intestinal blockage and hten a staff infection to boot. and now 2.5 years after

dads death i havent fully recovered truthfully my health is worse and i wont

recover to teh point i was when we first started taking care of daddy. dont

make the same mistake i did. please get help sooner. than later hugs. sharon

adhd5464 wrote:

Millie doesn't have a UTI but the change feels like one. the nurse

was here yesterday. I find she is more than I can deal with when she

only wants to yell at me.

I cannot expect a sitter to come in and take the same abuse.

Her son gives me no suppport to keep her in her own house, as he

would like his wife back.

If she has had strokes then we are dealing with a different set of

dynamics.

Her words are almost unintelligible and she is just mean as hell.

She then slips into pitiful.

the " kids " are running her ragged even when I send them home every

chance I get.

She sighs like she is dying and i am not sure how much more my body

can take.

We will call Hospice for some respite, as I need to regroup.

She says the house is dirty and things aren't where they belong, and

quite frankly, I can't pedal any faster right now.

There are no manatees to absorb my cares, and I am exhausted.

I should be in Belize with Emma.

Tomorrow is a day off, but I will not get one.

Millie is complaining of pain again which we had warded off with

Ultram for several weeks.

I think I need to get off the ride for a bit and feel like a real

person.

Wearing heels to the interview Friday threw my spine all out of line

and I ache all over.

If i am in pain, I have no patience for caregiving.

I wear sneakers to school with arch suppports so pain is usually not

an issue I have to deal with.

I am not sure I am crying " uncle " , but I am calling for the ride to

stop for a while.

If I know she has had some strokes, then I know we are no longer

dealing with just the Lewy Body symptoms, and then I can chart a new

course.

I don't remeber if i took my meds this morning because she was

yelling at me, so I am unprotected against constant insults and

badgering.

If someone else sent in this post, I would tell them to take care of

themselves.

It might be time to take care of myself for a little bit.

Ron, this weekend is a real pain in the ass for me,too, so you have

my sympathies from end to end.

Jim wants me to get on the waverunner and relax some, and I know it

will help my aching spine, but it all seems like too much effort.

I suppose my biorhythms have all dipped below the midline together.

I really have to buy some Calgon.

Millie is washing the dishes and sighing all the while. She insists

on washing sometimes, and I will have to go behind her and rewash the

whole lot.

I think I will have a beer and take a nap!

Down in the dumps and not taking any lumps,

carol

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