Re: I know I don't post alot but just need some support here

[Guest guest]

Hello Frannie,

I know exactly how you feel. I felt the same way before the TR. I

felt guilty for the same reasons you do. Just believe that " where

there is a will, there is a way " . You will find path and hop on it.

It's hard to be patient... believe me I know... we all know....

Right now DH & I are on our 4th month TTC and sometimes it's not as

easy as we think it'll be before our TR's, we hope & pray AF will

stay away and then boom, there she is and a flood of emotions

overtake us, but then we just hop on the " TTC " Train and try again.

Just learn to forgive yourself first, whatever your reasons for

having the TL were very valid...and then... be patient and trust in

yourself and God that you will find the way to come up with the $$

and have your TR.

Take care and God Bless,

Elda

> I just don't know how much more I can take. I keep having dreams of

> nursing a baby or being pg and it feels so real and then when I

wake

> up I feel so let down. I am still working on getting my money

> together and trying to figure out how I will get it all but

sometimes

> I just feel so damn sad, depressed and cheated. I know that I did

> this TL but if I could go back to that very minute I would never

had

> it! I just can't stop blaming myself for cheating my dh out of

> children. I love my kids dont' get me wrong, I wouldn't trade them

> for anything but I still long for a baby so much. We tried IVF 4

> times only got to retrevial 2 so I feel like I have lost some

babies

> (5 all together) still trying to deal with those feelings ontop of

> the feelings of hopelessness of never having another child.

>

> How do u all waiting keep going? I just don't know if I can keep

this

> up. I keep torturing myself by watching Baby Story and Maternity

Ward

> and I had to go buy a baby shower gift, I ran out of the store

crying

> couldn't even do it! Is this normal?!!!

>

> Thanks for listening

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