My Story, I am so very tired and this seems to simple to be the cause!

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Dear Friends,

I will try to get to the point and try to make the last 3 years easy to

follow, I am sure I will leave out some parts so please bare with me.

My Nightmare started Oct. 15th, 2005

On the other hand the life of my dreams had just began too.

See, I was about to marry my soulmate and best friend. We decided to

move in together in Oct. so we rented a house close to both of our work

and my kids schools. My kids and i had been alone for a very long time

and I was so very excited that God opened both of our eyes, so we saw

that we loved each other totally. I have to remind you I was very

independant and only would I even think of doing this if it was totally

right. It was and still is.

So Oct, we moved in, by Nov. we all got strep throat and so we were all

put on the same medication, Z-pack. We started getting better. Well My

husband, , my daughter Alli, she just turned 17 and my son nie,

age 12. I on the other hand had wierd things happening. Like 1. my

finger nail fell off, and I chalked it up to false nails. Then both my

big toe nails fell off. All that seemed a little funny and toe nails

grew back but the finger nail never has.

Ok so this was Nov. and and I were getting married Dec 24th in our

home. We both decided to get physicals and total check ups before

marriage and we even went to Christian Counseling to talk about mixing

our families, he has 2 older children that live on thier own and I have

one more who is married an her husband is in the Navy.

Well we were in perfect health right before we moved in our home , we

walked and ran, did alot of Charity Runs and I was working my way

up to my first one.

We both worked for the school district in transportation, he is a

mechanic and I was a driver. I loved my Children on my Bus, I loved

working with kids that are challenging.

Well ofcouse this is Christmas Time also so we were shopping together to

get everyone taken care of and and I were at a store and I started

feeling this unbeliveable pain in my legs, I kept thinking I needed to

sit down, and I told after a little while we had to go my legs

were killing me. We went home I looked at them and it looked as if I had

been beaten all over my lower legs. Me overcome by all the joy in my

life and i had never been sick really thought and more about it . Even

though we both were boggled.

Dec. 21st 2005 I had taken my sister to the doctor and after we met

to eat. Them I was taken her home when I had my first seizue , now

I know to be temporal Lobe seizures and I black out but is a horrible

feeling I had never felt before, I thought that the truck behind us hit

us,and i was dioriented and started crying due to being overwelmed by

the presurre in my head. well we pulled over and being sister was

extreemly ill with cancer, I got out of the truck and pulled it

together, and was stunned because I could not explain what happend. Then

I was so tired driving her home seemed like the longest drive of my

life.

Ok so far I got strepthroat and my nails were falling off my blood

vessels were breaking in my legs and I was having really weird spells.

Still didnt go the the doctor.

We got Married Dec 24th 2005, all of our kids were there and it was the

best Christmas of my life. We were all so happy even my 12 year old son

cried, when he handed us the rings. You just can't imagine how beautiful

and strong our love was.

New years eve, we had a Party, everyone was having a blast, and then I

started feeling weird but didnt say anything, then my legs started

hurting so bad I could not hold back the tears, I took Ibiprofen, and

hoped it would work, looked at my legs and had a little bit of the red

dots, within the hour my intire legs were covered in welpes and knots

that were purple and broken blood vessels. Everyone was shocked, the

party was winding down anyway and they all went home, Joking I had a

disease. I just laid my bare legs on the cold floor for some sort of

comfort and took benadril.

The next day the worst was overit just turened into bruises and the

major part was over. and I decided to go see my doctor asap. Well

school started back and I went back to work, and would be going to the

doctor that afternoon, by midday run after I dropped all the children

off I had another seizure on the bus. The crew from the bus barn came

and got the Bus and Jame stook me to the Hospital, because we called the

Doc and thats what she said to do,.They didnot have a flippin clue, gave

mye steriods and migrian medication and sent me home, and refered me to

a Nueroligist. Went to him got the EEG and thats when I learned about

the seizures.

After that I saw so many specialist I can't even begin to write but I

was getting sicker and sicker. I had what they call a ( mini stroke on

my left side ) I got minigitis, and pnoemonia, diaria so bad the

hospitalized me, and My blood presser allthe sudden decided to start

dropping extreeemly low. Everytime we turned around my fver spiked over

103- 104.5 and blood pressure 60/30 , My hematologist wants to do some

type blood tranfusion.

We went to doctors out of state looking for answers. I am getting weaker

by the day, I am now on disability. I don't know if i will be able to

move .

The stress has eaten away at our new marriege, oh yea we did buy this

house also, and found mold in my daughters closet coming fron the

airconditioner unit, and in the dinning room, and had not called

the health department or the insurance company either,

Jan, 2008 I was on a medication that made me a zombie and I wasnt myself

at all, stayed in my room didnt come down, I didnt care anymore, and I

felt like a burden to mu husband and my kids. The med, was making say

and do thing I don't do, I ended up overdosing, trying to get away, and

was in a semi coma for 3 days .

Like I said, Medication, I havebeen diagnosed with Lupus SlE and

Sjeogrems, Rhynalds, seizures, lyme disease at one point, you name it

auto immune I have been diangnoe.

I am now alone, my husband left me, 2 weeks ago, because he said he

could not handle it. Disapeared, doesnt call, nothing, took all the

money and left I am pretty sick right now and I am praying alot. I walk

and my blood vessels break, and when they do I seem to have small

seizures.

I am very sorry this is so long, I can't remmber thing I should.

God Bless To everyone