Thanks everyone for all the feedback, I appreciate you all!

June 2, 2008

[(:|] Hello Again, I hope I made it as short as I could last time.

Well as the time line goes I realized that has left me, envaded

our privacy by bringing his family in our bedroom to get whatever they

got and I got served with divorce papers all within 10 days. The Sunday

before he planted trees and rose bushes and other plants for Mothers

Day. The week before that I was at the doctors office with a blood

pressure of 70/ 40 not sure if I was going in the hospital or not, BOY

that would have put a damper on his plans. I am extreamly confused

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He has an anger in him that I have never seen in him before. I know he

is angry about loosing the love we once had. I am also very angry and

have been. I would do anything to change what is wrong with me.

But to answer some questions,

I was diagnosed with Lupus sle, Temporal lobe seizures, sjegroms,

rhaynalds , vasculitis, fybromiagia, chronic sinus infections,

We went to a specialist , so I could be tested for Lyme disease because

I was a camper and a outdoorsy girl, was,.I was always on the go and was

bite by something that scared me on my knee. I was tested by a doctor in

Mo. and he was very good and he send the blood work to a lab that knew

how to check for lyme disease. and I thought it was far fetched but it

came back possitive to lyme also.

I have been so far out of the box being tested and looking in that we

are in debt. Because he wanted to try everything to heal me. I know that

the day we moved in we were so happy, soon after we all got sick with

strep. After that my life was never the same, if I can get the docters

to hear me I think I would be ok.

I am trying for 3 years to get well and now i am getting a divorce. I

can't believe this. I know that we all feel alone but the only comfort I

know will never leave me is the love of God and it is real and

unconditional. I do feel comforted knowing somehow this al will work out

ok, my heart still hurts with terrible pain, wishing we would have never

moved in this house. Things would have been differant. I have an eary

feeling there is someone else, by the way he is acting.

Well everyone. God Bless you

I have you all in my prayers, I am amazed with all of your stories, take

care, till next time and the next chapter.

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